What's Happening?

Sure is!

 

I am so flat out exhausted.

 

Like my eyes feel like those ugly goldfish bubble eyes. Berr.
All I know is damn a Woodstock gonna go down fine tonight and a couple bong hits. send me right into the ozone layer and shit y'all!

 

I've been cold for almost 12 hours. I try taking off my hoodie but I get goose bumps on my arms.

I've been concerned about my neighbor, too.

She's the one that's 52 years old, battling lung cancer for the third time, and who also fell and broke her hip last week. Tonight her daughter was talking about hospice. I haven't found out if she's going into a hospice facility or if hospice nurses are going to be coming out to her house.

 

got the strangest call today, it was an unknown number that called ID said was from virginia. foreign woman talking and had trouble understanding her but from what i could understand she was talking about my pension from when i worked at A&P. she mentioned that they went bankrupt and to call some company for the issue.

now this would all be normal because it all fits....except

how the fuck did they find my cell number? not my home number not a letter in the mail.
i am pretty sure only full timers had pensions with A&P. this is the first i ever heard of it.

and why now, they went bankrupt a couple years ago,,,i guess it takes a couple years to hunt down the cell numbers of all those employees they had.

 

I found out that my neighbor will be having hospice care at home.

 

old people seem to do very well on my block, i am in what seems to be a retirement neighborhood and everyone is the same as they were 7 years ago when i moved in,

 

Yeah, but the neighbor I'm talking about is just 52 year old.

 

The neighbor next door, that had to get rid of the Akita, just brought over his new puppy. It's a two month old Standard Poodle. It's black. The cutest thing ever!

 

I really hope the manager at work doesn't switch schedules around cause she is a 2 faced bitch.

If she doesn't me the girlfriend, and the two year old boy will get out of town for the day. It would be good for all 3 of us.

 

It's been a really sweet day in the neighborhood. The weather's nice and people are outside being neighborly.

I took a pretty yellow potted mum and a welcome home balloon to my neighbor's house before the ambulance got her home this afternoon. I got a chance to talk with her daughter and found out the details of what they've found out since she broke her hip last week. She has stage 4 lung cancer that has spread into her bones. It's spreading so rapidly that chemo and radiation won't help.

I'm not going to pretend that I'm not bummed out by this. I have a bit of the feeling of, "There, but for the grace of God, go I". It's just sad for her daughter and grandchildren. They live next door to her like my kids do me.

 

I forget that I have all the symptoms of being, energetically, an Empath. I forget that there are things I can do to shield and protect myself from taking on the pain of others.

I feel like poop but I just realized what's going on.

I'm pretty sure I can fix this.

 

Aeri, holy shit...me, too....total empath here, as well.....and sometimes it is not enough I feel my own sadness....then here comes this pain that I do not know where it is coming from.....and someone said to me today..."It is because you absorb a lot of other's pain, whether it be human animal or another kind of animal....".....and I thought...great.....The weight of all of these feelings has me on the ground...

Humor gets me through almost anything though...

 

Everyone on the street today seemed to have a smile on their face in the midst of record breaking temperatures for the month of February




Hotwater

 

I was just getting to ready to sit down and watch my racing and my stupid internet only recorded 3mins! So I have to wait for a delayed stream!! About 2.5hrs away I dunno what to do. I'm in a bath atm.

 

Someone is going to be in NASCAR heaven with this weekend with the running of the Daytona 500,
Chase Elliott, Dale Earnhardt Jr., Danica Patrick, Kurt Busch



Hotwater

 

I like Chase and Kurt in that line up

I cannot stand Danica she's a useless driver, there are so many better options that have raced NASCAR in the Truck series even right now, that would perform better than her.lol.
almost 90mins until my races start, I'm watching some live Gymastics. I like to watch medal sports, see where my country is with things but I do not think we do that well at gymnastics.

 

amazing..

 

sharing a gold medal!! i think not. id put them, both to fight till death :d

 

Chase Elliot wins!! They'll be ecstatic at the Dawsonville Pool hall.