What's Happening?

One correction to that otherwise funny post. The steelers really didn't have bell.

 

Hubby just fell flat on his back. Luckily it was on a carpeted floor. As boney as he is that makes a difference.

 

You guys are sweet

Good luck but i know it will be fine

 

I really do hope so I can sense and see worry in her now. I wake up without her in bed, she's staring in the mirror. I tell he to stop doing that to herself. =[ I have been smoking weed a bit more. Seems to dull off any thought of it but I tear up maybe once a day. I walk around our house and I think wha it might be like to be on my own.

I don't like that thought but for some reason that's what I'm processing.

She told me that if we get bad news then she knows I will be a little whip of tantrums and anger and fire and she asked me to take all that and use it in pool. "Do it for me" type thing.

I keep telling her that they're not hard, they're the rubbery little feeling things that fibrosis feels like the doctor said that too.

My fear is, I've done this before and convinced that something wasn't the case when it was and then it hurts 100x more. I think maybe I'm trying to succumb to what might happen, to almost accept it in a way.

We tried to fill out our calander tonight for things we are doing this year, is a big office planning calander. I knew what she was feeling though, not to get too excited about the future. -sigh- I just want for it to be over already.

 

Just got a call from the bank to come in and talk. Told them I was in jersey. 15 minutes later I pull in to get money from the atm there.

 

Named the dogs.
Butchy
Raston
Professor
Runt. (Runt I may change. He is very chill but chill is a stupid name. He has a big head so maybe heady.....no how about topper. Yeah that's it.)

 

Went to the Robert Rauschenberg exhibition at the Tate Modern with a friend.He is a challenging modern artist,deceased.My friend is an older man,somewhat shaky on his feet.He is a retired artist.He has masses of unsold work in his studio which he wants me to take care of when he passes on.So l will be responsible for his legacy.I hope to be in a position at the time where I can do something with his remaining work.

 

Watch some comedy.

 

That's an honor.

 

Aeri, hope hubby is ok after that. Often you end up feeling worse after a few hours.

Irm, glad you are all ok after that accident. I know once you are done with the appointment and get the results you will feel relieved. Until then hang in there.

I have for some reason taken a fancy to dry roasted peanuts lately. No clue why but at least they are somewhat decent compared to some cravings I could have.....or I am telling myself that as I pig out.

 

He's feeling okay so far.

 

Glad to hear that. Stressful for both of you. Being caregiver is not easy.

I am contemplating starting dinner. Only Mia and I tonight as Kieran has late classes. I took out chicken breasts, not sure what I want to do with them. Maybe order take out and hand them the raw chicken..............lol Note to self, stop being lazy and cook dinner.

 

We try to watch TV shows but it just feels like we are doing it on purpose. There's not much laughing. There's too much concern on her face. She just wants to sleep really. I think sleeping to her makes the time go fast.

We'd always the few times we took the dog in the truck we'd really make an effort to lay down sheets and what not. But not today we went for a drive earlier, just to get my nerves down. Witnessing an accident like that really does effect you. Anyway I was a little jumpy at other cars, not afraid of getting into an accident, I'm like one those people that doesn't like it when I'm not in control. So I'm very comfortable with my driving it's just, I dunno what other people are doing. So when I saw a car flirt around the middle lane and then move back into its lane, I just backed off and let them have a lot of room. I think I'm okay now though, driving felt normal again afterwards.

Anyway, we just threw a tarp on the back seat and he came along with us. We figure why not? What's a bit of hair in the car, life's too short not to bring him with us, he's our boy and he wants to come and after the car damage I feel like well she's been through a battle now, that thought process of "must keep it prestine" is gone now. I'm glad about that actually.

 

I have all the animals outside. All the dogs are playing next to mom. Cat is across the street. Walks to the yard. Walks to the porch. Looks at the dogs....has that "ahhh hell no" look then turns and runs back to the far side of the yard.

 

finally killed a hooker,

well its not like it was my first time. i am just saying finally since i made the post on the subject

 

I was going to cook dinner when I came home from sitting with the girls.

I stopped by the corner store and picked up a few things.

As I was driving home, down my street, I starting feeling "sick". I got really faint feeling and was having heart palpitations as I parked in the carport.

It was probably low blood sugar. I ate the two pack of cupcakes I was going to have after dinner.

I'm still feeling pretty crappy; not like I can stand up and cook.

 

Thanks.

I'm drinking Powerade so maybe I'll feel better shortly.

 

i was going to say to the cupcake comment , it takes some time. but i didnt know how long ago you had them.

 

I'm okay sitting down; just feel washed out as all hell.