What's Happening?

You know, i've never been a big believer in adhd or add

And yet lately i find myself wondering if that is what the fuck is wrong with me. I have so much to do in the next month and I cant seem to juggle it all in my head and so i'm not getting anything done. I've always just kinda shut down during really stressful times. I have a big stack of mail and documents i have to deal with and i feel like my brain resembles the stack, like i'm just shoving everything in a pile in my mind and forgetting about it.

And i think an adderal or two would help immensely lol

 

Maybe we both need an adderal aeri

 

you dont want that stuff.. its not a good drug to focus on many different tasks.. I know you are probably joking.. but Im not the benefits of a sativa thc edible will give you focus and energy... you might want to try that. but hard to get a medical strain where you may live. CBD could give you some focus too, takes away pain and discomfort that distracts focus..

 

Oh fuck Mel. You just reminded me I had bills do today. Fuck I wonder how much late charges I just racked up.

 

I am joking, i've tried adderal recreationally before and didnt really like being sped up.

I cant really handle weed anymore sadly, makes me paranoid and it is hard to find specific strains, we just kinda have to get whatever our dude has here so i dont fool with it much anymore

But maybe i will try cbd oil, thanks for the suggestion!

 

LOL you're welcome. I'm good at paying bills on time, its the out of the routine stuff that gets to me.

Right now i need to apply for a mortgage loan. And i'm making it so complicated..like where do i even start? Do i just show up at the bank and tell them thats what I want to do? I feel like I should be better at adulting by now.

 

Provigil, I use to like. I don't have it anymore.

 

I went to a bank I was comfortable with then went to a bunch others to see if they gave a better deal. Went to lending tree online
Lucky for me the best deal was my regular bank and they just take it out of my account. One bill I don't have to worry about as long as I have money in the bank...that is what I am good at
If my bank account starts getting low I use credit cards till payday.

 

My bank account was defraud recently by someone in Fort Lauderdale US.( Can't spell it).I noticed it on my online statement.Several and more transactions.It's not the first time.They must have fished my account number online.Luckily my bank is very good at refunding fraud cases.Just one call and the money was back in my account next day.Same thing happened to my female friend just the last weeks.Same bank.Me - victim of cyber crime! Makes you think.

 

Getting a haircut is a great way to start the day.
Feeling soooo fresh.

 

Provigil; College students have dubbed it Viagra for the brain because it increases mental acuity


hotwater

 

today i slept, read, and later then usual in the day, went shopping.
i haven't turned on a television in months.
didn't turn one on today either.

the only youtube i watched was a panel being given by some artists and animators
talking and illustrating about their work. by way of a link from artstation.

when i got home, i checked my fur affinity and then here.
only after midnight did i go through my email.

the only things i listened to were the real world sounds outside,
and some of the recorded music on my hard drive.

i doubt i would have to explain what i didn't do,
or why i didn't do it.

 

Ignoring my old physics teacher, from elementary school.

Please don't see me
Don't recognize me

 

You learn physics in elementary school? Good lord we really are falling far behind in education

I hate running into people like that, i feel your pain

 

Yeah, but only in 7th and 8th grade.
I dunno, I keep hearing a lot about our education, and how it is better in USA for example....like, we are literally stuffed with a bunch of (useless) information that we forget sooner or later, while you guys are taught to think critically. But what I like about our system is that it is very focused on languages.

Also, she didn't see me yay. I never liked her. She's one of those old-fashioned ladies, with her clown make up and fur coats....always nicer to boys, and more strict with girls. Oh and she made it clear that she prefers it when girls wear skirts. I don't think I ever saw her smile.
Ah whatever.
A lot of those old school teachers were mentally stuck in Yugoslavia and old times back then, I think.



Anyways, I have short black hair now, and you should all too.

 

The lead singer's brutal murder from a few days ago reminded me that I used to really like this song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=csaUvkYOkLY

 

oh and it's my name day today, woohoo

 

Is that traditionally before or after your birthday?

 

Look at various rates being offered by various banks. You can do this online. A lot of them have mortgage calculators you can use to figure stuff out. Once you've chosen who you want to go with, you will need to apply for the load, which involves getting them some paperwork and filling out an application. They're run your stuff and tell you exactly what you're approved for. You then can choose to accept or decline their offer. Some people tend to apply for several mortgages at once, to see who gives them the best terms. Doing so at once does not negatively affect your credit, since all of the bank inquiries come in at once and credit agencies realize that it's a legitimate mortgage-type inquiry and not a bunch of regular credit checks.

 

I put my dog out when it was drizzling rain. She hates rain. She doesn't even want to walk in the yard if the leaves stay wet a day or so after rain.

I watched a video and turned around to see it raining really hard; wind blowing it sideways, etc.

I see the dog snuggled into the chair under the overhang but she is getting soaked.

I go out in to "rescue" her and she won't budge.

It was pretty funny to see, I'd imagine. I was standing there in the pouring rain pulling on her and she's snuggled in not moving.

Eh - I guess that you would have had to have been here...