Whats going on in your mind?

I get bits of songs, or a word or a phrase, sometimes a melody stuck in my head and it influences everything I do. I had the word -flutterby- stuck in my head for three weeks. How winnie the pooh says butterfly. When I had to by a new purse, it was one with old school pooh on it. It just keep repeating whatever it is over and over and over inside my head.

 

I'm worried about my health. I keep feeling weaker each day. I'm paler, and I keep seeing flashes of color. I barely have the energy to eat, but I can't sleep at night. I keep having sharp chest pains along with headaches. Oh and I'm having dizzy spells everyday. I wish I still had health insurance.

 

I am truth.

I'm having very deep, warm and calming thoughts on humanity. I've been thinking all day, philosophizing why some people without hesitation would follow or go ahead with following someone at their bidding into the flames of hell. Why a heart which is exhausted with grief cannot find peace, nor can a mind preoccupied with anxieties genuinely devote itself to application.

Are the inner-contritions of sin all-important if you follow blindly?

Even in sleep there is no respite to a mind or a heart within the dreams that come to us and leave us all the same. Why are human bodies so limited and ugly? It must not be so true and telling of a soul's virtue.

 

We go so dumb they think that we're slow but, when my gun goes pop off top they gon know we're stupid hyphy *starts giggin' crazy*

 

I am consumed at the moment by the question of whether to spend all my energy sucking what little substance I can get out of my life or just resign myself to mindlessness until I am healthy again. I am tired of having nobody in my real life that understands such a dilemma. I am tired of being talked down on by people who think their standing in life above me is purely to do with choice. I am also very happy and cozy and feeling lucky to be sitting at my computer far away from these problems for the time being. I just don't want to care.

 

I'm concerned about you. You should get a blood test.

 

ilyena,
the kirshmeel,
strange warped xylophones
memories
laughter

 

I didn't see your post Tree Hugger.

Maybe you should get health insurance before you are diagnosed with something.

 

Doubt.

 

I am having a self-pity party over my wounded big toe which I hurt riding my bicycle drunk last night, and I am pondering whether or not I should go see this girl I met or just leave it to chance. actually, I just decided. leave it to chance.

I am also looking forward to going diving in about an hour's time!

 

the stars.
we all must gaze upon them.
and i am a chicken

 

damn, those are not good symptons. hospitals I think have to see you insurance or not. We have a really cool place here that charges you based on what you earn or dont earn. its a private doctor. I hear he is pretty good too. Maybe you should see if there is something like this near you.

i hope you feel better.

 

Geez this is way to deep for me. But I like it.

Peace

 

whats going on in my mind.....
well, i keep thinking how we just lost every freakin motion we prepared on our homicides. So sucks i worked my ass off on those damn motions... knew we werent going to win.. but still sucks.
thinking my boss and i should have planned to go the county jail to see some clients.
thinking the guardianship which took me two days to prepare is going to get pinked and returned. always does. also thinking that the sheriff that was just in our office was pretty hot.
also thinking that i should get my daughter in the house but damn all the kids in the neighborhood are outside. and damn, i am hoping what i am feeling in my nasal area is a sinus infection and not a toothache coming on.

 

I like being fresh out of the shower with wet hair feeling the breeze blowing upon the wet areas of my armpits. I feel refreshed. I am wondering whether to go out at all though. I look ghastly today.

 

Right now Im wondering what the time diff is between eastern Canada and Australia

 

the simple things.
do they mean so much?
or when only compiled?
wtf...?
well.
only thing for certain is happiness.

 

i am afraid of drinking my beer there is a metal peice in it

you know that peice that you use to open up the whole that they made on the can so you can put it up to your mouth

and lol to this thread its like random thoughts inside of random thoughts

 

"it is the best of times, it is the worse of times"

 

love.
love.
love.

:]