Depression, frustration, stress, internet porn, and masturbation ... for now ... Going to bring up an open marriage. Not going to live with this BS, and not going to fall for her games of having sex to appease me, as I don't want to fuck someone who isn't into fucking. Besides, the games of delays, excuses would start back up, just pissing me off again. When someone tells you it wouldn't bother them if they never had sex again, believe them! She doesn't know about the bi interests.
Exactly as it is with me except the open marriage thing is a big no from her. My wife does know about my bi interests. 11 years ago I had cocksucking mates. I think now that's my only hope for anything sexual.
Went through many dry spells in my first marriage of 25 years and rather than cheat with women I did so with other married guys in the same situation. The last 15 years of our marriage was off and on with her. I was finding so many other married guys on Craigs List wanting a suck bud or just getting sucked off. I had so many different cocks to enjoy I gave up on her all together. I could never understand why so many women (my wife included) refused to at least suck their mans cock to keep him happy. Well, it all worked out just fine for me as I was hooking up for mutual oral 3-4 times a week and also had several guys just wanting me to suck them off a couple times a week. Her and I eventually divorced and I remarried a woman who simply loves that her husband enjoys sucking cock and getting fucked in the ass.
Since cheating was not an option for my wife, her suggestion was to let our gay friend give me a bj. She actually admonished me for not trying it with him. The next time together, I did suck his cock, while my wife watched. She promised to fuck me with the strapon, if I did. I have been wanting her to fuck me with a dildo, strapon, or whatever for the longest time. It was a freeing experience. It was a unique experience, sucking a cock, nevermind doing it while my wife watched and commented.
You should have asked her to fuck you while you sucked his cock. It's OK, you got satisfaction but being fucked by your wife while sucking a man's cock and swallowing his load is a memorable moment for a couple.
All too common... I don't know if women are wired differently - but it is a cruel joke that a man is driven to spill his seed while a woman's desire to take it seems to change after she has had her babies and reaches that age of change. It's what drove me toward going out with men. As time has gone on, we have worked out a livable situation where we put family first but she does not accept or support my gay side. She is all about the kids and grandkids, which is fine. There's more to life than that, and it's too bad she doesn't see it that way. That's life in the fast lane.
This is sadly where I am now. My long term partner whom I live with has no interest in sex. Her libido in completely non-existent and it's hard to live with. My sex drive goes unchecked and without someone to be intimate with, I'm stuck in a hole. It sucks so much.
Stuck in a hole? Stick your cock in a hole, a glory hole. You might get lucky and it will be a guy sucking you off for something new. Stick it in a hole, a guys hole or a girls hole, I would try both it's why we are here in the thread I was in a sex shop it had a cruising lounge with porn booths. A guy approached me I could not be into him but if I knew what I was doing I would have been in the booth watching and the other guy could have accessed me and sucked me off without me seeing him. If I go back again I know what to do .
I completely get it as it’s my story too. It is what has driven me to have sex with men outside of my marriage. It’s a big step getting there I understand and may not be the answer for everyone. But it seems to be what works here.
I'd give you a hug if I could, hun. Physical intimacy/sex with a partner that I'm also emotionally involved with is so damn good. Not having access to that, well.. it doesn't change how I feel about her, but I really... and I mean REALLY need to find an outlet.
