What OPIATES are you ON RIGHT NOW?? Part 5

God man I've relapsed I don't no how many times. Like beatnik said just learn from it and move forward. I no all about the depression and it's tough to overcome. I feel bad for you, I've been there many times. I wish you the best bro, learn and move forward!

Jay you want find shit here you better get ready to hit the streets.

 

Oxylover u beat me to it by minutes, lol

 

lol

 

Where's bottlefed at now? Is he still on here I've looked for him but haven't seen him lately just wanting to say what's up to him.

 

Yeah I know worth a shot, 30$ for overnight shipping! Oh how i could go for some m and ms right now

 

Thanks for words, guys. I've been dealing with this crap for two years now. I was clean for 8 months but I was tripping every single weekend then I got on the opies again and ended up replacing that with MXE for a couple months, was clean again for a little while then found myself dropping $300+ a week on dope again. Good thing I can't get H here or I am sure I would be dead. That right there is how I know it could be worse.

When I quit coke, shortly after, my dealer moved to Cali so it wasn't in my face all the time like opies are because everyone in this town is a junkie. One day I found Suboxone wrappers in several different parking lots around the city. lol

Maybe I should try subs or the clonidine regimen. Not having insurance it's hard to find a sub doctor and I refuse to get on methadone. I don't even really want to get on subs so I may go to my old Dr. and get on clon. I don't wanna tell my current Dr. because I don't want him to stop writing me kpins which I absolutely need for my anxiety which is why I got hooked on opies (and coke and everything else I've had a problem with) in the first place. They (opiates) are the greatest social lubricant for me and allowed me to be able to hold down a job.

Ever since my dad died in a car accident anxiety has ruled my life. I can't even drive because I freak out. I used to barely even leave the house. In the beginning of the month, when I have my kpins, I am good but I end up taking them wrong because I have a tolerance from being on them so long (Dr. won't up my script) and I run out within 2 weeks (sometimes not even that long) and go back to opies.

I'm a chick and not a bro, btw. lol

 

Two Fentanyl 100 mcg/hr. Feel fine but not nodding. Even though it's the weekend I still have stuff to do. I'll just do it feeling nice.

 

Went a little hard tonight... 2 Opana 40's, a few Xanax footballs, and about 15 15's or somewhere around there. First time I acually started to nod out in a while.

 

God sorry for callin you a bro, chick... Yea suboxone is a lifesaver I swear!! It can be expensive especially the first month but fuck if u got a $300 a week habit its gota be cheaper right? If you can get through the first visit it does get cheaper though and the best thing about it is its easy to reduce how much u take atleast in large doses so u con get down to only taking 1 mg - 4 mg easily and that is just less drugs u gota buy makin it cheaper. Taking a larger dose doesnt really do much more then a low dose maybe except for at first just gettin outa withdrawls. Its changed my life completely but i put alot of effort and counselling into it to.Good luck girl and let us no how things go for u either way.

Morfeen im jealous,that sounds like a awesome day. I wish I could have just 1 more day with all them drugs but I cant. It would turn into a 3-9 month beng if I did it but it still sounds amazing!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Like planned, I took small doses of Subs all week and then had a HUGE opioid session yesterday. It was beyond amazing and well worth the wait. I had been taking 2-3mg per day all week, and then Sunday I took 5mg at once. At first it didn't hit me and I was worried that I wouldn't have as 'big' an experience as I planned.

Then the next thing I knew, I was bouncing up off of the sofa, having a myoclonic jerk, coming out of nod-land. I hadn't been that high in at least a month. It was great. I felt so peaceful and worry-free. All of the incredible stress of the last week melted away and I was able to look at things with a new perspective. The high lasted a good 6 hours and I just enjoyed nodding in and out, listening to music, and just thinking about things. It was awesome and really 're-charged' my worn down psyche.

 

Hey Etkearne, Does taking a benzo with your subs increase the euphoria and recreation potential for subs? I never mixed a benzo with subs but I know a benzo on methadone will fuck your world up. And didn't the vyvanse decrease the relaxing effect off the subs? do you smoke cannabis on your subs?

 

Belated bump for promethazine with codiene.

 

I dislike taking Klonopin with opioids as it detracts from the euphoria and makes me just tired. The Vyvanse, on the other hand, actually increases the euphoria, and doesn't make me nervous at all. But keep in mind I have a rather complex mental health case, so my conclusions are probably not the best for the general public. I would like to try smoking Cannabis with my Suboxone some day, but I haven't had any in three years and don't know anyone with it these days. But I would try it if it comes around my circles some day.

 

Well you can always consider spice. I know its bad but everybody has tried it and smoking a small amount isn't dangerous. I couldn't take a stimulant with opiates, it just defeats the purpose, FOR ME of course. but a low dose of kpin and some cannabis would throw you into another world.

 

250 mg of codeine. Not exactly what I'm looking for but it's taking the edge off this shitty day and it's all I have.

 

60 mg of oxycodone. Percocets. so orally.
I took 75 mg of hydro and 400 mg of tramadol with 5 etizloam and didn't fell half as good as I do now and i only took 3 etiz with these oxys.
I forgot how energizing oxy is. I cleaned my whole house, reorganized my closets, changed my bed sheets and did all my laundry. Gosh i missed this.

 

And damn-it how cigarettes intensify the high by like 10 for like like 15 minutes.

 

i always end up smoking a lot more when im on a bender, lol

 

I don't like the mix of cigarettes with opioids that much. I don't really ever smoke, but once or twice a week I will have one cigarette in the middle of an amphetamine run. Now THAT seems to heighten the effects a lot.

 

As for opioids, I am having a relaxing day, so I will take 4mg of Subs today. I want to sit outside in the sun and enjoy the mild weather while it lasts.