What feelings do you have when you ejaculate/orgasm while someone you care about watches?

When I masturbate for my partner I feel a powerful mix of emotions. I feel manly pride when my penis becomes super erect and I put it on display for her. The feeling of so openly preening my manhood for her evaluation makes me feel vulnerable and excited. It’s so basic – like a caveman appealing to a potential mate.

My emotions turn to humiliation and shame as I revel in the degradation of playing with myself like a desperate adolescent.

And then, pride surfaces again when I ejaculate. I can think of nothing more viscerally affirming than to forcefully ejaculate stream after stream of the very essence of maleness while my partner watches and judges.

Unfortunately, afterwards I often fall prey to the feelings of shame and embarrassment society attaches to masturbation as I lay there covered with my own semen. But fortunately, that part is quickly forgotten.

I am curious to know if others have similar (or different) feelings; and if there is a female counterpart to such emotions.

 

I'm a male and I too have mixed emotions. I've traced it back to childhood programming in catholic grammar school. I too would love to find a female counterpart to such emotions. Good luck!

 

I'm 55 years old and have been masturbating regularly since age 12. My first wife (25 yr. marriage) thought it was degrading and humiliating so I did so while she was not present. I felt nothing but pleasure while doing so until I released my load, then I felt somewhat ashamed. I'm in my second marriage now (6 yrs.) and she thinks it's sexy and watches. Prior to me she never watched a guy pleasure himself and found it to be very appealing and usually helps by caressing my inner thighs, balls, and will slap it against my tummy. But when I'm about to erupt she wants me to stroke away and watch me ejaculate, she loves seeing my load shooting out. I now feel nothing but proud and have been encouraged to do so whenever the urge hits me. We have sex about twice a week and I also masturbate a couple times a week while sitting on the love seat with her watching television. She makes me feel excited to do so as we watch it grow with each stroke. She enjoys watching as much as I enjoy stroking it as she compliments how big and hard it is, then I let her know I'm about to explode as she'll say "C'mon baby, shoot a good one for me". Then I'll clean up and cuddle with her as she says "Feel better?"...I reply "Yes I do". It's incredibly satisfying having a wife that enjoys watching versus having to do so alone.

 

Beautifully written. You are a lucky person!

 

Thank you, I think I am.