its no secret. i'm simply better able to think clearly when utterly and completely alone. i believe most people would. if they weren't so emotionally addicted to trying to impress each other. well most people don't enjoy being alone either, and i'm not suggesting a cultural shift any further toward everybody making each other unhappy, then what we already have. and there is humor that i actually like. it is when humor is not being used to promote ignorance. of course there are many activities for which i would prefer not to have an audience. in my case, most of them. even an audience of people who might bennifit from them. like washing their dishes or taking out their, our combined actually, garbage.
i think the only thing i don't do "in secret" is ride a bus, or go to a library. and thanks to the internet, i don't go to too many libraries any more either. i do still go to grocery stores. that's most often what i'm riding the bus for. though i've heard of people doing all of that on line too. why in the hell do people even want to carry their fish bowls (cell phones) around with them? it was bad enough when everyone just had a land line in their house. if you actually needed or wanted to get ahold of anyone, there were these things called pay phones. the cell phone IS 'big brother'. and thanks to the big brother cell phone, we no longer have pay phones as a means to contact each other anonymously. or is that too long ago for anyone to even remember what a pay phone was? they used to have nice cozy hardwood booths around them, before idiots thought they were doing the world a favor to destroy everything. then they were just stuck on a tin post with a little mini-temple porch roof and a couple of sheets of plexi on two sides. and now even those have disappeared almost entirely. and poor countries have stopped stringing land lines entirely, because its cheaper to put up a cell tower.
Sometimes when I post something on facebook (which I've recently deactivated), I can't bear to look at responses immediately. It just gives me waaaayy too much anxiety. Also, I can't do immediate notifications about anything ever. I can't imagine having notifications to my phone about something, unless it was some type of emergency. I just really need to take a break and return later. I'm so weird, huh?
