What Are You/Have You Been Doing Today.?

zilla and ahmad - sorry to hear about your respective relationship issues, i hope things work out ok for both of you

i have had to realise that i am actually, at this stage in my life, completely incapable of a non co-dependant functional monogamous relationship... so i just have friends with benefits and keep my heart behind a big brick wall

as for me today, i woke up hungover, stressed about not having rent money... called my best friend's mum who bailed me out and paid it for me (on the condition that i come over for dinner next week haha!)
SUCH A RELIEF! i'm not going to be homeless!
after that i had some lunch at the hare krishna place in the city, cruised around for a while, bought some fruit and curry ingredients to take camping this weekend and i'm now chilling for an hour or so before i head to a mate's for dinner - overall a pretty successful day so far

 

iiiiiiiiiii feel like shit. cant even drink water without my throat stinging like a bitch =[

and re the relationship probs.. i always blame myself too. last july/august, my bloke cheated on me (i didnt find out until december) and it was simply because he was lonely and wanted comfort, so he went with some girl (whos gay anyway).. all i could do was blame myself, i thought id driven him away etc cause i wouldnt have sex with him in the backstage area of a festival he'd played the week before (truth), but no, it was just me being silly noggins and now thats behind us and shit is almost cool. almost. its our 8month anni tomorrow and i doubt ill see him, which sucks. booooooo.

 

Why Not..?....



Cheers Glen.

 

we're also going thru a patch, so we're giving each other a bit of space while he gets his head sorted, and i know hes been invited out by 2 of his friend groups, so he might do one of them instead. plus im quite ill and arent good company right now =/

 

If You Love Someone......Really Love Them......And They Are Sick.......

Isn't That The Right Time To Be As Close As Possible To Them...?..



Cheers Glen.

 

he doesnt love me, hes told me plenty of times

and hes not much use to me right now since his head is full of shit and he doesnt know what he wants.. he knows he wants us to work but he wants to get his head straight before he gives me a definate answer, and i cant be mad at him for this cause ive done it to him, and since im ill, theres nothing i can do for him to make him better.

his moods are all over the place, we're not talking as much but that was the deal while he gets sorted.. hes seeing the councellor at work and theyre making him question everything (including me)... im the longest relationship hes ever had, so hes a bit... edgy? nervous? because hes never done it before, whereas ive been in longer...

think ive made him feel bad cause i asked him whats he doing tomorrow and hes said he might go the gym and then get an early night but he doesnt know (which means hell get home from work, eat, and then probs go out on the piss), gahh.

its just stressful. ive been trying not to think about it so i can concentrate on getting me better, but ive still got to show im interested in him getting better. i mean i am, but im too bloody ill to remember all these things.

 

Whatever Happens, Put Your Health Above Everything Else....

Meanwhile, Here's A Big "Getwell" Hug From GLEN....:grouphug:.

Hope It Helps You Through Your Day....



Cheers Glen.

 

aaaaaaaahh ive made him feel bad now, hes comin to see me tomorrow haha

 

Well, I'm off to an interview in a few hours in Brum, gonna do some reserch on the company and interview tips before I go, fingers crossed

 

Best Of Luck....



Cheers Glen.

 

good luck swampy!

 

Cheers, I'll let you know how I got on if it does'nt work out, I've got another 2 interviews lined up just in case

 

Awh smelllyyy What a fuddle all that is witiiitthh you being ill aswell As Glan said, put your health first, you'll make yourself illereer stressing about everything <3

Got up at ten, face felt like the sahara. Went into town, got some more wool to finish the bear- its going to be all pink now, no stupid mix and match xD got some cream what is used on kid's ecxma, and the pharmicist said it was really soft and for sensitive skin, I bring it home and I find its got alcohol in it. I stuck it on anyway cus mah fayce was dry as fuck... Now I'm waiting for that usual alcohol-in-the-face-stuff-burn. So far, so good. Though my skin is like a vacuum and sucking all the moisture out of the cream ><

Went into uni and took out my tealight holder moulds, they didn't work... complete rethink me tinks.

Tired now and I want bed but nu essay stupid essay.

 

can you not use aqueous? its a general great all rounder cream, i swear by the stuff

 

Vas is das? I'll have a look see in teh chemists tomorrow ^^ The stuff I got today hasn't given me trouble so far, so I think I should be ok

FINSHED my goddam essay!! *Breathes*

 

Good luck Swampy.

I actually slept through the night alst night. I haven't done that in over a week. YAHOOO!!! I feel rested. Actually, I was up at least twice with my ill son, but I fell straight back to sleep, so it doesn't count.

Today I have errands to run, ill children to cuddle, having someone over for dinner tonight and lots of hula hooping. SHould be a good day.

 

Shortest Interview ever !!!!! Good job I prepared some questions beforehand and some answers etc. I thought it went quite well. It was more of a "meet 'n' Greet" me thinks. The interviwer was quite nice too. Will find out tomorrow "Fingers crossed"

Oh and the building looks awesome. It's just a baby at 18 weeks old !!! awww
all glass inside and out more or less

 

Hope it goes well swampy.

Raging hormones day for me. Had to sit on the loo for half an hour waiting for the husband coz we ran out of bog roll. At least I won't be raging when it's our leaving do next week. I think I might flip out soon.

 

:O Good luck swampy!

Tehe hdh Hows the dawg?

 

He seems better, he's not licked his wounds in ages and he's not been bleeding. They're a little weepy though. He's still depressed as fuck though.