What are you guys doing in life.

After quitting psychedelics for nearly a month while i reflected on a lot of recent journeys. Ive concluded i might have gone crazy.

My view on the world has changed to beauty creativity and life in everything, like I have seen the truth and know it can never hide again.
I want nothing but knowledge and experience in my life, but I know realistically this cant work. I feel content but worried like I no longer belong to this world. I have plenty of good relationships with friends, family, etc. but i view everyone in a new way. Its as if ive lost respect for the mass population only to be replaced by sympathy maybe?
I get along with everyone fine but only because i feel like i have to act normal or be thought of as an insane acidhead or something. I remember my daily thoughts used to be of things such as school, money, work, worries, social activities. Now my main thoughts are questions, answers, relationships, ideas, theories, conspiracies, still social activities but different. Worrying about my image or how people think of me has turned into caring for my relationships and how i think of other people.

I worry now im never going to find my place others will understand in the world. I worry i will never start a career and be happy with myself. I worry i will never "settle down" marry, have kids, buy a house, work 9-5, 5 days a week, 52 weeks a year. Right now im in college still but i love learning. When i graduate i feel i may never be happy again knowing i have to work my life away. I feel like i would even be happier as homeless traveler opposed to a successful millionaire working 40+ hours a week at a job i don't enjoy.

I'm doomed to forever search for a happy life knowing for me it cant be found in this era of time in the world.

Guess my main questions are do any of you feel the same way?
If so what are your plans?

Do you know any people who are also like this?
What do they do?

Do you think ive just used to many psychs and gone insane feeling as if reality has become a trivial i dont fit into?


And before anyone posts "you think too much" I know but its just how my brain works :willy_nilly:

 

im a crazy acidhead.
I think Im more down to earth and more fun loving since I binged on the psychedelics. not crazy in teh literal sense.. its more like a adventurous type o thing. Like climbing the Mount Everest.

"I'm doomed to forever search for a happy life knowing for me it cant be found in this era of time in the world. "

bullshit. look around. open your eyes. you design your own realities. you cant find yourself? look for it harder. The 60´s are nothing compared to what we have today.

You wanna find like minded people? go to gatherings. psychedelic trance,burning man, whatever.. We are out there singing and dancing and howlin at the moon.

meditate more.

 

^I worded that poorly. I was meaning i wont be happy living a typical lifestyle. I found happiness everyday though.

Yeah man i really do want to meet more likeminded people around here it just seems like everyone either only drinks or does opiates as a drug of choice. Im just not a fan of addictive drugs. I really want to go a lot more festivals too! but im very bad at managing money so i usually cant afford it at last minute. Hoping that changes this year though

 

psytrance parties are a good place to find trippers. (if you are in Eu, in US there are jam bands or whatnot) and festivals!!

I was alone too.. but not anymore!!! I was about to become a "norm" ... I have accepted it and thought im gonna pick up one of those dumb chicks who never do anything and are dumb as fuck. (watching mtv dumb) marry her, knock her up and live the life of the average joe... seriously I was really fuckin close to become a norm..
but then..

magic happened and I found like-minded people

keep on looking. We are out there and there are many of us!! more than you would think!

 

I feel I can relate to much of what you are saying. In short, I feel LSD is basically a value changing drug, it can change your values and views. I think this can definitely be a positive thing in certain aspects. It can allow you to view and perceive things/situations/people in ways you haven't before. Sure...it can make you pretty "far-out" at times, but that can be some of the magic that comes with it. I have found it has given me a great appreciation for the finer things in life. You just can't over do it.

I as well, feel there are times where I think to much into things/people/situations, etc... especially after having a strong trip recently. However, perhaps it also has to do with my personality type (I can read and talk to people very easily). I'm curious to know how often you have been tripping? I usually have just a few strong trips a year. I feel you should still take some more months off from tripping and reflect upon your recent psychedelic journeys. Taking some time off from tripping will allow you to realize some of your experiences in a new light and integrate some of those things into your life.

Psychedelics for me have definitely made me forever view and appreciate certain aspects and things in life differently. They helped me awaken and gravitate toward the things I now love in life... such as: music, art, nature, culture, places, people..etc... they also helped me establish myself and where I should be in life. Though i'm still not completely sure what I want to do with my life. I'm hoping to still pursue being a musician and partake in much traveling (maybe visit europe)..making some $$$ doesn't hurt either haha. i'm transferring colleges in the fall 2014 (in the city).. so I will still have 2 years to go till I graduate. So i'm hoping to work hard, meet new people, establish connections, and travel.

It's been a little under a year since my last psychedelic experience. I have 2 tabs that I've been saving...just been waiting for the right time to take em. but yeah, overall i understand what you're saying. I personally cannot even picture myself being married and having a family/house as of yet.. maybe in the future, idk. anyways, i love psychedelics, they have done wonders for me try taking some time off man...focus on maybe some goals that you want to achieve in life and work hard and do your best to achieve them. psychedelics can show you the path you should take, but it's up to you to follow that path.

cheers ! :sunny:

 

I've been where you are. I was ready to fall upon a sword. I was ready to withdraw in every meaningful way from the fake, destructive, manipulative, shallow world of the "norm".

Psychedelics only emphasized this more for me, by filling my head with thoughts I knew others wouldn't understand and couldn't relate to.

What changed for me was realizing that happiness is not a condition that is met when certain other conditions are met. Happiness is a decision.

It is a decision to be here, now, and to love and work.

Put yourself in a position where you can spend your days doing something you love, and spend your leisure time with someone you love. Make it so your work time and leisure time are perhaps not always easy to tell apart, because you are happy at both.

I was ready to fall upon a sword and today my plan is to graduate college in april and devote myself to easing the transition of dying people into death in a medical, therapeutic setting. Sobriety and time gave me this purpose.

Do not think your condition is permanent, for there was a time when it did not exist, and there will come a time, hopefully sooner than you know, when it will end.

Your life is yours to live; if you wish to be alienated, perplexed, out of place, out of time, a wandering ghost . . . then prepare yourself for this life.

If you think there is a chance that there are other ways to spend this one life you have as a human being on this planet . . . begin thinking and planning and working and loving

The fascinating thing about psychedelics is that your time off of them is often more important than your time on them. Take a break and try something else. Learn a language. Learn about ancient Greece. Take up an instrument. Try being somebody's other. Try. Do. There is a buffet in front of you; if psychedelics do one thing, they hopefully show you this buffet in greater light. It may appear strange and not to your liking, but the thing with new things, is you never know until you try!

 

too much from august to november i probably did every 2 weeks or so. I feel it wasnt enough time between trips to reflect. Thats why maybe during my current brake im coming to these realizations lol

but yeah i will space them out in the future my trips became very routine and lacked the insight and journey a trip should hold. I believe i was becoming too recreational rather than using lsd as a teacher.

 

Did you ever see Office Space? With the main character admitting if he had a million dollars he would do nothing. But his high school guidance councilor asked him "what would you do with a million dollars" and the answer is supposed to be your job. My favorite quote from that movie is "that question is bullshit because if everyone had a million dollars there would no janitors because no one would clean shit up".

You have to work to live, not live to work. There is nothing wrong with admitting you don't love your job. Your doing it so you have some time to not work, have a roof over you head and do nothing or whatever you desire. Sure you can find something that you like more then other things but very few if any people really have the sort of job that is not work to them. Work is not fun, that is why it is called work. Maybe some one like a pro athlete or something can really say that but the average accountant, it is a job done because they must.

Some homeless pick being homeless because to them it is better then having to be a slave for 40 hours. I guess you have to ask yourself if you want to do that too. But the main thing for you now is to finish school do not worry about anything else. With a degree you will have many doors open when the times comes to pick something.

 

I am still thinking about becoming a "norm" tho..
Ignorance is bliss. maybe try to forget?

to answer the original thread question I am working in a restaurant. fastfood.
not a good place to find fellow trippers but speedfreaks and stoners are common.

Im currently looking at mining jobs in Sweden (where I live currently) heavy physical .. so I can get away from all the city life. probably not gonna find one.. but worth a try

 

I know what you are going through. Just role with it and enjoy the ride of life. Nothing is normal instead it is only conditioned. Keep up the deep thoughts that exercise your creative mind. Happiness will come in accepting yourself and not being what you call a 'Normal' person. Fighting who you are or feeling that you should be different will only drive you mad.

 

This thread is wonderful, i feel/felt the same way ever since i have stopped indulging in drugs. I've took up quite a few hobbies since then lol

Also here is a quote that is very relatable to what i experienced after my last trip,

Does anyone else have this thought of everything connecting in some way? As if there is something that i don't know?