turn off the stupid tv. take it out and shoot it, firing squad style, with a couple of 12 gauge shotgun shells. let your mind thing its own thoughts. and THEN ask yourself what you really want. if its still another tv, that's funny but dumb. burrying yourself in excitement isn't going to do either. that's just another obsession. stop repressing your own imagination and build a world around it, instead of trying to replace it with false gratifications like entertainment. build trains. build computers. build mazelike houses and houselike mazes. play, like the child we were ment to be but never allwed ourselves to, but with an adult's caution and consideration for the kind of world we are creating. you want meaning and gratification, build that world, even if all you can do is plant the seeds of your dreams in other people's minds by describing them on the internet. go out in the woods and pound sticks together or pile rocks on top of each other. there are shapes and forms in nature and in left over machine parts, more entertaining and inspiring then any cleched plot of corporate media story telling. pray to the shadow of a lief, without trying to give it your name or your face, it, or something through it, just might take pity and love on us all. believe me, there is more then what we see, and none of it obliged to resemble what anyone else has ever told you to pretend. there's a big universe out there, and as many different kinds of alien, as there are pine needles in a forest.
