OK, for the past few days, I've been considering the fact whether I am attracted to men or not... (i am male by the way). It started, when my class was debating on homosexual adoption, and one loud mouthed girl went through entire homosexual proceedures to show how disgusting it was. I personally did not have a problem with gays before hand, but after hearing what she had to say, I started wanting to confirm to myself my sexuality - I developed a fear of becoming gay. I considered myself straight for all the time before this (I had a massive attraction towards women, and still do), but for some reason now, I wanted confirmation of being straight. In order to try and prove to my self, I started turning on the TV just to see whether I was attracted to good looking males or not. Almost all of the time, I was not. Still, I wanted to test myself to get a definite answer, as I hated the feeling of not being sure. This developed into a sort of anxiety, and I really feared being around men, or even touching them, in case I had some feelings towards them. Then, I started testing myself even more, and went on a gay porn site - which was a bad idea. Now whenever I see any man, I just get reminded of those images, and they do turn me off. Later I started comparing gay and straight porn to see which was more attractive, and the only type that turned me on was straight. Still though, even after trying all these tests, I am still unsure, because every time I look at any man - yes ANY man, I get a really wierd feeling of fear and nervousness, as if I am just about to take an exam. I dont get aroused etc looking at a naked male/going into the male showers at my sports club, but still I get this strange feeling of discomfort, fear, perhaps mixed with nervousness. I really hate this feeling - even if I am tired as hell, and am just going to bed, if I turn on the TV and see a male, I start getting that feeling again, when I don't even want it. Is this actually a feeling of attraction, or something else? Please help. BTW - I dont have a problem with gay people, I am sorry if that is the way it came across from what I have written.