Welp, I'm gay.

So, some of you who was here when I first joined probably saw this coming and in fact, made comments predicting it. Of course at the time, I denied it because "it's impossible, I'm straight!" But after reevaluating a lot of my core conservative beliefs, plus some "incidents" that I couldn't overlook, I've finally became at peace with the fact that I'm, in fact gay.

Aside from my homophobic posts and opinions I made here on this forum, probably the second thing I'm most ashamed of is how long it took to realize my sexuality once I stopped to consider my past experiences growing up and into adulthood. Now that I'm at peace with myself, my next step is to eventually come out to those close to me.

 

That is awesome. Good for you! Coming to the realization you are gay is a wonderful thing. I used to be straight but always had this undercurrent attraction to men. I came to the realization just a few years ago that while I still find women attractive, I just want to have sex with men.

 

You must be feeling awesome to admit to yourself! I'm sure its a big step !! Hope you continue with your progress

 

I certainly feel a whole lot better about myself.

 

Well I'm an ally. I just put out a post today if anyone needs a little bit of moral support I'm here.

 

Love this post, and love you for being in my boat, I'm just not willing to say I'm gay yet and change my straight life. I've accepted I'm bi and told my gf.

I find myself wanting to be in a relationship with a man rather than hooking up, getting all silly and giddy with him, flirting and being coy, looking into his eyes and loosing my breath, make him breakfast. I'm an introvert, so I dream of a man coming along and sweeping me off my feet. I'm just not ready to turn my world upside down.

 

Congratulations on finding out who you are. At least you are happy now. We are here to support you.

 

What did your girlfriend say?

 

I can count on one hand how many times I wanted to be sexually/romantically involved with a woman outside of adult websites. Even then, there were only a couple of videos where I wanted to be with the girl and not with the guy or doing it in a group setting. Conversely, some of my earliest memories was wanting to see another guy's junk. Never thought like that with any woman I met, so in retrospect, it's absolutely ridiculous that I thought I was straight for so long.

 

no not ridiculous, just resisting what you thought was not normal........ i do hope you get to experience things the way you want it to be ......

 

I'll PM you, I have bored everyone enough with the details before

 

Very much like you, but I did want a bit more women, I put that to social conditioning, I did in my early twenties realize watching a a girl sucking a guy my mouth would imitate her enjoyment. I'm so conditioned to just see guys as guys but to drool at a nice girls ass. But a guy a met up with 2 years ago just went right for a kiss, I saw it coming and wanted it to my surprise and it blew my socks off, way more exciting then any other kiss I've had. But I'm still living my straight life.

 

Not boring at all!! Please let everyone know!!

 

Coming to grips with emotions is difficult.. but don't give up your core values... I am bi.. lean more gay, politically conservative, Christian and an an absolute bottom slut between the sheets. Be who you are and who you were made to be

 

Same here friend

 

Im glad your not afraid to tell anyone buddy

 

Good topic and resonates with me. I didn’t have my first sexual experience with the same sex till I was 38. As a kid I always liked girls but I do remember a couple of signs now that I look back on it. One was seen a boy in the gym locker couldn’t take my eyes off his penis, another time was in a hot tub cave and there was a guy lying. across from me and again I was drawn to his Penis but also his body. That’s it nothing more.

late 30s I end up in an adult arcade and got my first BJ from a guy. Then ran like crazy. Well curious me I then started watching gay porn and exploring with more men. Realized how much I enjoy all sexual things with guys.
I have admitted in the mirror to myself that I’m gay and one other guy.
Still married to a woman been caught and admitted to having sex with men. It’s been very troubling for me. I crave the sex from a man but am trying to now be faithful to my wife. I honestly wish I could come completely out. So many complications, house property retirement etc

 

Hey if you
Ever want to chat just pm me

 

Awesome. Now what?