way too much hate in me

Wait what am I doing? I almost forgot asking and old hippy for wisdom is like asking a priests for answers. They just going to feed you a fuck load of bullshit.

 

then they probably see bad in you --> seeing bad in people you signal them somehow what you think of them...
its either subconcious signals, bad energy, whatever you choose to believe... and 98% of ppl cant stand that, even if they pretend they can.. --> and they act negativly towards you...
as simple as that,
as hard to change the behaviour in real life as... as hard rock, i dunno

maybe you hang out with the wrong type of people?

or maybe you are too sensitive... depressed, anxious, something...
try and relax, detox etc....
really, when i'm nervous, i cant stand anyone... when i am relaxed, im so outgoing (talk ab mood swings.. you'd hate me)