Watching over us.

A comfort. Although I really do smell my Dads aftershave, and no-one else in my family uses it.

LOL sounds fun.

 

I've had few things this year near miss wise and other things. That may suggest I have a guardian angel of sorts, I've not gone yetband at at least one of the moments should not have ended as it did. So you never know

 

Yes none of us really know for sure.

 

It is just that I dont see STEP sister as sister because it is not. It is only half blood. Not full blood. There is difference.

Real sister (or brother) means full blood, not only from father's blood but also from mother's blood. So I dont see her as my sister because mother is different. Half Blood (Step) Sister is not a Sister.


Mother and Father had divorced when I was 8.

Mother did 3 marriages (first one is with father). However she did not make any child with her other marriages.

Father did 2 marriages (first one is with mother). He had her daughter in 2012 at the age of 51.

 

We all have different circumstances, When I was born my mother was 49 and my father 63. I am my mothers only child, but my father had been married twice before, Both his previous wives had died, the first during childbirth and the second during WW2. Sadly, my father died when I was 9.
My oldest step sister was the same age as my mother, so only ! of my 8 step brother and sisters is alive today, Having moved to America, I have not seen her in more than 40 years.

My point was that you must not let your past ruin your chances of happiness today.
Even as a half sister, their is no reason for you not to see her as a friend. It is not her fault that you do not share the same mother.

 

When I was born, mother was 19 and father was 29.

Brother and Sister are from both same father and mother. End of Story. For me to have a sister or brother, it should be from both same father and mother. Very simple.

You have genes not only from father but also from mother. When one is not same, it is no longer a brother or sister. Half Blood doesn't make it a brother or sister. This ain't my fault, either. This is the fact. When you are reasonable, you will agree with me on that.

I don't have brother or sister. My father and mother did not make any other child together. It is only me. You see.

 

Oh, Grandy darling. i DON'T know what to say. You are determined you are always right.

 

You are in a similar family situation to me, but I still managed to qualify both as an engineer and doctor, become the chief engineer of a major company, as well as designing award winning buildings.
Along the way, I managed to get married and produce 3 children over the last 40 years. Our youngest daughter is about your age and has just bought her first car.

You never seem to mention work, do you have a job where you can make some friends.

Your attitude to girls make no sense either. I am clearly not interested in dating girls working at the local shops, but most of them know me by name. We also chat from time to time and it is just normal to me.

What on earth are you doing to make you think that the whole world is against you.
Clearly you are in a rut and only you can get out of it. Are you cooking your dinner right now, or just sitting around feeling sorry for yourself. Only you know the truthful answer to that question.

 

I am not working but I have some money. Otherwise how I would be able to drink alcohol without working, wouldn't I? However my money got less and less in 3 years. I could buy a new car with the money I had 3 years ago and cars are very expensive in Turkey because not only does the value of turkish money suck but also taxes are fucking high.

Even in dollars, cars are much more expensive (high taxes) in Turkey not to mention how turkish money has terrible value. Add bad value of turkish money to it and the result is terrible, isnt it?

 

The last time I worked some place, the other worker wanted to beat me up. I dont believe in making friends in works. No.

I have a friend living 15 km away from my home. From time to time, we meet. We had first met at the prep class of the university in the year of 2011. Since 2011, I couldn't graduate from university.

The only thing I did in university was learning english, which was at prep class. I did nothing else. I study at chemistry yet I know nothing about chemistry. I didn't learn anything in 8 years (counting the prep class out).

I first drank alcohol in the last day of december 2012, which I believe is called new year. I ended up vomitting all over. 3 months after this happened, I started drinking oftenly (march 2013). I hadn't even smoked any cigarette till summer 2013 in my life.

In Summer 2013 I started smoking normal weed less or more. What more came? In 2014, I smoked synthetic weed.

 

yes. especially when i gaze at an old photograph. i can feel their ghoast and hear a guidence and memories. as well as the graveyard

 

If you wonder where this money comes, it is the money that my mother had in her bank account.

After she died, 3 out of 4 her money came to me and 1 out of 4 her money went to her husband (step father), which is by the way how money is shared in turkish law. The child gets more money than husband or wife.

 

Guidance is good.

 

I think your Mother would wish for you a more productive life Grandy.

 

But has that money done you any good, or has it just allowed you to drift along without bothering to get up and go to work.?

I have worked for 57 year, in buildings with between 25 and 2,000 staff, During that time, I have never come across a single incident of staff physically fighting.
Neither Jane or any of our children have come across it either.
Although a few of our eldest daughters customers start fighting and one of them shot one of her co-workers a few months ago.

What sort of company did you work for and why did they want to beat you up.???????

 

I worked at burger king and another worker at burger king wanted to beat me up.

He was shouting at me about something at the work, I shouted back at him for that reason. And he started threatening me saying that he was going to show me when we were outside after the shift was over. So we got out and he wanted to attack me outside.

 

He sees the right in himself to shout at me yet when I shout him back, he doesn't like it and wants to beat me up when we are outside.

He and one another guy at the work, I had terrible problems with both of them at work. Terrible. It was hell going to the work.

I worked for 2 months at Burger King.

 

I worked for Burger King for a few months and none of the staff threatened to beat me up.
Perhaps they were afraid of me, because I was working for their head office and installing new equipment.
It was about 15 years ago, but I seem to remember that quite a few of the shop staff were Turkish and Turkish Cypriot. I remember chatting to them and they were always very pleasant, but we had a slight language barrier,

When you get your next job, ignore any idiots and spend your time associating with the nice guys.
I notice that you are quite fond of music, so how about applying for a few jobs in music shops or studios. You will find the staff far more friendly and you will enjoy going to work.

 

I have ideas about it, and some day I'll know. this is a subject that needs talked about more. Depending on your belief system the same activity we notice is a loved one for some, someone haunting for the fun of it, demons, ghost cats. I have my own theories but it's what it is as it's meant to be. I get the feel of others still hanging around that are very much not dead.

 

The undead?
That is scary.
Tell me more.