You are not a virgin, because you said that you are a single since 2000. However, I believe if you get close to your family and friends, you can have more upportunity to find a partner.
I am married but I don't have sex with my wife since a few years because of her problem, so, I try to masturbate whenever I have a chance to be alone and even I do It next to her while she is asleep next to me.
I don't like to be fucked by a man, but I insert many things in my ass while I masturbate. I shove cucumber, carrots, eggplant what ever is smooth and nice like a penis. I boil them for a few minutes to get softer and warmer the I use a water based lotion to push them in easily. How about U? Do U shove something?
I also present as masculine but I'm a bottom with men. I love to be on my knees in front of a mans cock wearing my satin or lace panties, or very skimpy thongs. I always ask my lovers to spank my nice plump ass. I would like to wear a corset, garter, and hose while my lover takes me from behind. I've let all my lovers cum in me or on me. I look forward to deeper exploration ( so to speak) into role playing as a sissy.
My fantasy is to play with another sissy. Go shopping for panties, come home and have a fashion show and then find a cock to worship together.
I like both the idea of fucking a tight bubble ass boy in panties or fishnets or the idea of getting fucked while I wear something feminine are both a turn on for me just depends on the day