wanting to be depressed

wow i think youve said more on here then ive ever heard you speak in real life lawl jkjk but yea

why cant we talk about these things in person greg??

 

cuz thats just how i feel.........and it would be kinda awquard to bring it up in a conversation

 

Be careful what you wish for. It may sound romantic to be depressed or mentally ill, but it really isn't much fun living with it! Imagine being in severe physical pain only relieved by morphine etc. Now imagine how that would feel as unrelieved emotional pain just as strong - that's how depression feels. It's torture you want to escape from, and you have to suffer and survive every moment when depressed, or escape through sleeping if you can, or drugs (antidepressants or other drugs.) I do understand though how when you're not depressed you can look back on your 'other' self and feel nostalgic for it... there never is a real peace I've found. The best thing to do is pour your energy into something, such as a hobby or helping others.

 

Ok, ya I have nostalgia for those things, and yes it sounds romantic to me, you're absolutely right. But I mean sometimes I can get down, but I usually don't show it and I don't let people get to me because thats me. I just want the experience of pain, you know? Like something that I do regret wanting. But I take things as they come. And I do pour my energy into things, I drum, occasionally masturbate, guitar hero, the whole bit. I'll probably end up a junior college drop out perverted dope fiend, so this'll come back to bite me in the ass I know.

 

i hope not!!!!

 

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