I've tried getting a job everyway I can... I've put in resume's and applications everywhere, and I've even gone into 4 employment agencies around here and still I have gotten nothing. I've gotten more into downers, and I basically don't care anymore. I used to make sure I didn't do opiates too often before, but I just really don't care for some reason. I've gotten really irritable and when I get angry I get much more angry than I usually would. I get angry because of the smallest thing. If someone didn't like something I was doing, I used to sit and listen to them. Now, I either leave the room, threaten them, or just completely break down and start breaking things or balling my eyes out. I'm not looking for help, I've gotten all I can get. I'm just venting.