right after I have a seizure I am blank. anyone with an assertive enough demeanor can tell me to do anything. I will do it, and have no memory of the event that is vulnerability.
this is involuntary vulnerability. which is super scary. what i am talking about specifically, is voluntary vulnerability. where you choose to become vulnerable because the outcome of not doing so is infinitely less desirable than any of the horrendous possibilities we cook up in our terrified minds.