Hello all. I struggle with sexual repression that manifests as rage. Do you have anecdotes or other insights on how to most effectively use shrooms therapeutically? as a special point of interest on the subject, I've had 2 strong trips, four smaller trips and I microdose frequently. my first strong trip though was extremely painful, and for a while mushrooms and panic attacks were closely entwined in my mind, but things have calmed down now. I'm nervous that it may trigger a negative loop i can't break free from, to confront a topic that holds a lot of fear, rage, etc. Volatile emotions! But I just feel this idea calling to me and don't want to disregard it out of fear. i would be honored to hear the mushroom's insights on the topic of sexual repression, but i won't be able to benefit from it if turns into a bad trip. or so i fear
The heavier and more difficult trips are often times the most beneficial for exploring issues because they take you out of your comfort zone, away from your comfortable patterns of thought, which often maintain the repression and/or trauma. There are many measures you can take to lessen the likelihood of a bad trip, such as being in a comfortable environment with no responsibilities to attend to during your trip, but that doesn't ensure that it will be a fun trip either, particularly if the intent is to work on a lot of self examination that you are uncomfortable with.
Gee Kumquat, I'd sure hate to see you having a bad trip. If I were you I would not try a mushroom trip with all that going on. Instead, you might be surprised where you can get with a medical edible! If they have medical marijuana where you live that is. If so, I would recommend trying KIVA; only take 15mg at a time.
Not getting laid is a disease of itself, for the young. Work on breaking thru to something that releases your negative experience. Getting laid would also help!
When coming down on shrooms I am like a porn star God....... I can keep a bardo and fuck for hours. Better than Viagra and cialis combined. But when I am on the way up and while peaking I couldn't get a hard on if I tried. Psilocybin makes my dick shrivel up like a scared turtle...... But on come down just before I hit baseline again you could chip ice with my wang dang doodle. I highly recommend mushrooms for sexual healing. I would like to hear more about your sexual repression manifesting as rage......that sounds really screwed up and mushrooms my make it manifest worse or may help heal it. Generally speaking I don't trip with anyone that uses the words rage and repression in the same sentence. Psilocybin can really dig up some bad feelings if you are screwy in the head.