Using LSD to overcome social anxiety/gain confidence/kill insecurity?

ok well firstyl im really smashed right now. so ill have to reply to your posts later.

ummm, i am in a good place now. i dont take drugs, just antidepressnts.

and anyway, im at uni, so what the fuck. and i have a diploma. but my dimpma was hard to get i even went to tafe on acid. lol

every minit has meaning to it ay?
yeah i know whats that like... thats just the afterglow, it coats your reality in this amazing kinda feeling like there is more.... but thats just a trip too. it wears off. till u realise u need to do acid again. yes acid then becomes very much a thing u want to do often. u want to stay in this amazing fairy land. its better than boriing old reality right?

i guess ultimatly its just my perspective? but me and my friends have done a fair bit of acid, iv had my pscyhotic episodes, and iv had the voices and now im really sane. iv thought acid was the best thing in the world. it gets old.
then acid starts to fuck u up.
anyway, im too smashed im going.

 

It def seems like you abused acid petey. It reminds me of the stupid kids at raves who eat 5+ pills in one night. Not thinking about the consequences. Its good that your doing better, and that your trying to make people aware of the dangers of acid, but you seem to think your opinion is the only correct one. Most of the posters on here don't drop as much/ as often as you did.

 

taking LSD can lead to insights and perspectives beyond the self that may in the end lead to positive growth in overcoming anxiety and insecurities. but if things don't go just right, you could be set face to face with your insecurities only magnified by 1000x. its very unpredictable, certainly not a quick fix. both experiences would probably lead to growth. but either way, if being more comfortable in your skin is important to YOU, then know its going to take some work - personally, mentally, spiritually - no matter what. maybe dont be concerned with being a "chill motherfucker" cuz thats a perception others would have of you, and caring too much about what other people think is where the anxiety stems from. think about you and who you are, who you want to be. if partying with lots of people makes you feel anxious, then don't do it all the time. believe me i've tried, its really hard to try and overcome your feelings by thinking about them while your feeling them (that IS the anxiety) and taking acid will make it even more intense. my best advice would be - if your planning on doing some personal reprogramming of your head, with or without drugs, start alone or in a small group of people who you trust completely, where any thoughts of feeling that come up can be expressed, reflected upon and dealt with.

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And pete. You still like to alter your conciousness, just not with lsd or psychedelics. It's not a bad thing. I'll be honest with you though - i don't drink alcohol because I don't like the way it feels. But I don't going telling people that they will fry their brain by drinking a volatile solvent (even though science could prove me correct, and my experience with it has not been positive - my dad, uncle, and two close friends are alcoholics). Not to mention the after-effects (hangover). As you can see, extreme cases are just that - 'extreme cases', with extreme circumstances.

And here's what I'm trying to get at, regarding my last post:
You say that lsd is 'just a trip'. Well, so what? Life is 'just a trip' as well. That is why you have to find meaning in what you do - be it your job, your hobbies, your lsd trip, your reason to stay alive. I don't go to church, and christianity means nothing to me. I have reasons other than god to stay alive though, for example I like to smoke marijuana, eat psychedelics, excercise, feel good, listen and play music, all of that cool stuff. You like to go to the gym and get pussy. Therefore we have reason to continue living, to continue the 'trip' of life.
Lsd trips are the same, in a way. If you have no reason to drop acid, you don't. If you do have a reason, and/or you find something useful in its effects, then you do. The same applies to every drug, hallucinogen, pill, or whatever. It's simple. You have a reason to eat anti-depressants, therefore you do. I have reasons to smoke grass, therefore I do. And if we find happiness and contentment in what we do, there is nothing wrong with that, so long as we do not harm others.

Anyway. I have contributed nothing to the op. But tumbledownDNA has a great post that pretty much sums it all up.
I used to have social anxiety; for the most part, I was just concerned what others did and would think of me. My experience with psychedelics did help me with this, and I could probably speak to a million people and not shed a bead of sweat. But at the same time, psychedelics might not help you with that situation. In the end it is up to you to decide what you want to do.

 

Well I'm glad to see that you don't take drugs anymore because we all know alcohol isn't a drug and it causes absolutely no brain damage or any damage at all to your body.

Yes, I am being a fucking asshole, but seriously be honest with yourself, just because it's legal doesn't mean it's not a "drug" and that it's safe.

 

A good place is a fine place indeed.

But do i ever want to go back to a fairyland?...No lol

 

Yeah that "afterglow" is what makes life even more awesome. I won't do anymore acid i don't want to make my mind anymore altered i love it the way it is now. I think that you need to smoke some dmt peter, then you will realize that everything really does happen for a reason. Life is a trip Thats a good saying, i have believed that since i did acid.

 

thats a pretty good way to put it.

as for how long the meaing lasts? can leave u with more questions?
its a big can of worms to open lol

 

i can drink all the alchole i want and it wont cause anything like what the other drugs did.

 

so you guys dont plan on doing more acid?

i dreamt i was on acid last night. last time i did it was in march. dont want to do it for llong time, maybe ever at all.

 

Yeah it seems like alcohol doesn't cause as much brain damage as pot. Thats a different discussion though.
I feel like i want to be the way i was before lsd, because i was more skilled in gaming and stuff. On the other hand, i don't have as much social anxiety anymore, i can talk to people without getting caught up in my own thoughts anymore, that is a relief. So its a tradeoff, once i get my hand eye coordination back i'll be happier than ever. Like you said, it should wear off anyways right? Do you still feel like you are always tripping peter? Is it getting less and less extreme? just curious.

 

lmao how did acid affect gaming?....i had a dream last night...I was a turtle in my shell under neath water...resting for a little bit....and then i swam...I believe its because i was really stoned last night.

 

Yeah the first couple times it diddn't affect me at all, but now that ive done like 30-50 hits I notice i have less concentration in Call of duty, i can't seem to aim at people as fast as i could before.

 

i used to play games all the time. i never do now tho for some reason.

but i know im not the same as i used to be, there are just things, i can feel my brain changed. i am used to it. tho i feel alot more grounded lately. u have to get used to and accept the altered feeling if u get any, tho however some of it does subside with months and months of waiting.
but still the rewiring is still there, you'll always have crazy dreams and funny thoughts now n then.
i used to go to work and feel like i was tripping on 1 hit of lsd. all the time.
i used to go to work as a different person everytime. id be so lost in myself and forget the day before, so everyday i was somone new.

now days i take anti-depressants which actually give me more grounding.
but id say im doing pretty good, it doesnt feel like im on a hit of acid anymore. but theres deffinatly still an altered perception and deeper thinking that somtimes makes me sigh. but i dont think about lsd 24/7 like i used to. i have got on with my life, and ur different but u forget and just live. i think iv done well with side effects.
i cope with it by telling myself its all just a trip. cause i had at one stage been a raving mad man about crazy trips and saying they are all real, and its all real. maaan its trippy just remembering.

i think everything looks pretty futuristic. like as if i came from the past.
or id be driving down the highway at night, and think wow i am just flying this futuristic vehicle down the highway and theres lights and shit. amazing. or the bus and the bus tunnels...
id amagine in the future, flying cars, cars all conncected on a network, eliminating crashes 100%. each car knows where it is, and drives itself.

i also think acid made me more cocky. like i know more things, and the things i know are correct. just cause i guess you go so far away and have such crazy fuckin trips its nothing like weed or anything, and people just dont know where ur mind has gone. sooooo far away from this realtity, its so scary to me. thats why i dont want to do lsd anymore. its too far away and its too fucking scary, and it takes along time to come back to realty, fully, or never quite fully, and never quite the same.

like going to heaven, experiencing 4d, ur friend driving is some cartoon from a childhood memory. ur clear headed but u dont know what ur doing or what the fuck is going on. thinkning about it lsd is really scary, u have to be fucking crazy to do lsd. thats right that was our motto.

u have to be fucking crazy to do lsd.

 

Peter: For some reason I get the feeling that you're more like half the age than your profile says. I don't know why though, weird eh?

 

thank you for this, it was very educational. not about LSD, but about what it looks like from the perspective of someone who should not have ever tripped, post-lsd. fascinating.

I experience every single thing you note to various degrees and rank them as supremely positive life changes. You see my friend, it's all about where you are and what you think, and you wanna blame all your anxiety and ignorance on LSD, have fun, it looks like it's even working for you (hows the gym and pussy going?)

just know that for every one of you in the world, there are 100 people who are going through the exact same thing, and loving it.

 

i kind of had the same reaction....Except it wasnt until months after the trip and me being like a maniac that i realzied how much i changed my own personal self since taking a small peice of blank paper with huge effects...I dont see it as taking me far away from reality i see it as my mind giving myself some kind of new drawing technique on reality...Funny enough tho after my trip i was extremly happy and wanted to take as much lsd as possible and then as months went on the more quiet i became to the point where i was not talking....now though after me not talking anything for almost a year and looking back on the after-after affects i realized i dont need to do it anymore...as mr.writer pointed out i was always worrying about my mind and what was going on upstairs but i kind of have forgotten about it.

not crazy to do lsd, but curious?

I respect though :cheers2:

 

last peice of input...I took lsd when i was depressed and insanly paranoid on e...Does that contribute to my side affects of being a complete mute? lmao

 

My parents and friends have noticed that I have become much more quiet in the past few months. If they only understood why. So much chattering, washed away. Silence is your name.

 

Ah, if only it were more commonly accepted that silence is okay.