Until I'm prettier, I don't want to date.

It seems to me you need to learn to love yourself, not change yourself, in order to start dating. and really, at the end of the day, you'll find that most guys could care less about an extra 15 pounds or if you shower everyday.

the best days I have with my boyfriend are when we lay around all day...... eat popcorn and both don't care enough to take a shower. and then finish it off with a 12pack and probably a thousand empty calories of beer.

but I do recommend lotion. I'm in love with it and shea butter will have you smooth in no time. if you feel shitty about your lifestyle, just change it. don't talk about it, be about it.

 

Diddo.

OP just realizes subconsciously that she is better than how she is currently living, or capable of being better, and wants to be but hasn't figured out how to motivate herself properly yet.

 

It's much better to love yourself and become the best person you can be before getting into relationships. I wish I could have done such in the past, but that can't be changed. I admire you for doing just that.

 

Where? Shopping? Cinema? Pub?

 

Well said. People change throughout their lives. You hope to find someone who loves you flaws and all, because we all have them. Also, I tell some of my body concious friends who fret that fat, thin, tall, short, etc. people all have sex. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and if your beholder thinks you are beautiful, you hopefully have the self esteem to feel that way too!