I think I'm a bicurious person. I had a long desire to get fucked in my butt. Initially I controlled it. But it started to grow so much. I was unable to control my self. I controlled it for 4-5 years, and it came back. I tried to insert some things, But I didn't enjoyed it. From some website, I got so many people interested in me. I contacted them through mail. But it in the end I denied myself. I have done this almost Four times. Contact a person, and later I refused. I'm unable to understand what should I do. I think at some point I think that this is wrong, and then I refuse. What should I do? Please help me?
Relax! Been there before myself. I don't consider myself gay, but I have enjoyed gay sex before when I was in grad school. I just wish when I did, I had the internet. The chance for anonymous hook ups is much better now than for me! My first time, I thought, oh shit, what am I doing?!?!?!!! It was great, but afterwards I felt guilty and ashamed. Gay = bad! Ahhhh. I can't be gay, can I? But relax, ease into it quietly. Just because you try it and want it doesn't make you full out and out gay. Most all men have these gay fantasies, and there's nothing wrong with fulfilling them. But for the first time you try it, you may just have to convince yourself to go through with it regardless of how you initially feel. But trust me, once you try it, it's hard to quit! It is amazing sex. I had an affair for almost a year and a half before I met a woman who I eventually married. I still miss it, but I shall be faithful. Good luck, and let us know how it goes! Also: be safe, use a condom.
