we are never happy. it's hot as fuck here today too. i've been waiting for nice weather for a long time, cuz it's been pretty cold lately. now it's hot and i complain. i hate weather. why can't it just stay in the middle.
I am going to have to go offline and unplug everything for a while in a few minutes because we have a huge thunderstorm headed straight for us...it made it to 93 here, hotter than expected, but my shack is under the trees with cross ventilation, so it's not too bad, I have a breeze.
Thanks for answering my questions Angel. I feel for you, I know just from arthritis that joint pain is horrid, I couldn't imagine having it 24/7. Oh, I'm so glad to hear you no longer do heroin and things like that. Those drugs have a way of turning ones soul black. Have you tried accupuncture for the pain? Are the memory problems short-term or long-term memory, or both? I'm pretty lucky in that regaurd, anxiety disorder only gives me short-term memory loss. I do memory excersises though, if I have something I NEED to recall, I say it outloud to myself 22 times. It works for the most part. Sorry this is a bit jumbled, my brain is still in dreamland!
It is mostly my short term memory, although my father sent me a photo album because I had lost all of my pictures in a fire back in the 80s, and there was one of my daughter at age 14 or so in a hospital bed. I had no memory of her ever being in the hospital! Obviously she was, the picture is there to prove it, but it is gone from my memory. As soon as that happened, I began to write down everything I can remember so that I won't lose it altogether. It did panic me a little.
Because of the 400 Watt Metal Halide in my closet, my room temperatre in the Afternoon is about 104 and like 90 at Night.
darlin' you are so amzing the way your so cheerfull. I know me and u have discussed this b4, but damm!! anxiety and agrophobia sux!! Its so annoying even tho I'm almost better my heart still does the tiniest flutter when I do that first step outside my front door! Even that is annoying altho that will go too, soon. Are you having treatment? Des it bother you? Should I pm u all these questions instead of blabbng on the forums??
Firstly, I'm glad to hear you are still taking steps in the right direction concerning anxiety and agoraphobia. It's a hard life-long battle, but it's definitely one worth fighting. You'll probably always feel that little flutter, it might never go away fully, but as long as you keep pushing forward, it won't worsen. I'm not always so cheerful believe me, but thank you! I like to try to stay positive about my situation, getting down about it only makes things worse, I've learned from experience. I've done exposure therapy in the past, and still do it on and off. It's worked for me before, but a personal loss set me back. Exposure therapy is pretty much true to its name. You're exposed to your fear in small doses, the exposure grows larger as you are more comfortable, until you have met your goal. It's INCREDIBLY hard to make yourself do. Those first few steps are hell. I plan to start again soon, summer months make it hard though, I can't stand the heat (which is apparent in this thread). There are quite a few medications on the market for anxiety, but I have opted out of those thus far (almost 5 years now). I feel that those drugs (paxil, etc) are blanket drugs. They really don't know what happens with anxiety, just a general idea, and the chemical levels in every persons brain is different. Yet they believe they can treat it with one blanket drug. These drugs can help you, do nothing for you, kill you (cause suicide), cause psychotic breaks, nervous breakdowns, etc. Taking someone with an already fucked up mental state and fucking with their seratonin levels with a blanket drug in a 'lets see if this works' method doesn't sound like treatment to me, it sounds like drug testing on humans. My fragile mind-state can't handle that right now, maybe in the future I'll give in and give one of these 'wonder drugs' a try, but for now I refuse.
good on ya dude. I'm on medication called Aropax. It's helping, but the side effects suck to the max. The doc said he'll put me on them for 6 months so I'm just hangin in till then. This is quite funny, but sometimes I'll be out in the middle of town totally fine then I'll THINK about anxiety and suddenly I stress! It's so stupid!
today was AMAZING it was about 30 c which i think is something around 81 f such a beautiful day, i love this weather. i tanned and BBQed with some friends, happy happy times and now i'm on my balcony and its still plenty warm.
It sure is hot I like it when you can wear shorts and not sweat your ass off and roll the windows down.
omg! i wish i could go back to that! i dont even remeber it but sounds so much better than -30 weather
