ok so first off, i didnt even make it a week with out lying. i seem to have to restart the damn thing every day. maybe if i make the goal shorter and reach it, then i will have more determination to fullfill my week of no lying. anyway i had a very sad week or so it seems. i called my older brother last night to see whats happends after i turn 18 with my mom paying child support. well that goes away but ill still be in high school when im 18. the trouble i run into is a house. now when i turn 18 and my dad doesnt get any money from my mom, he has no reason to have me in the house. my older brother basically said to kiss my dads butt after i turn 18 in order to not be threatened to be kicked out. besides that i have to find a way to pay for car insurance all by myself on my own plan and pay for gas. i figure this will work if i do this work release program at school where i go to class half the day them work. but my older brother also said that would not be enough money. other than that, i still have no clue what i want to do after i graduate. i dont really know if i even want to go to college. this is a very hard thing for me to decide and it impacts my future. i also do not wish to take the SAT's but have come to the conclusion i probably should. what sparked this thread was that my friend got accepted to art school! she has a lower GPA then i do but is one hell of an artist. the thing that bothers me is that i dont really have a talent that could get me far in life or to where i want to go. i was so proud that she got it, i almost stated to cry. it felt awesome knowing that someone who didnt do well in high school could have their future career. i try to explor new things every day and usually like most of them. i guess im really looking for guidence between everyone here on hip. can i live a decent life without following the path of everyone else?