Too Much Information: Intense LSD Trip

Hello. Some information (hopefully not too much) to share with you: October has been a curious month in that I have been taking psychedelics for the first time in over eight years. At the beginning of the month, I went to a music festival and met a nice young lad who sells mushrooms (psilocybin). They are organically grown on a farm and highly potent. A couple of months earlier, I went to a cigar shop and met another nice young lad who has an acid connection. I kept his number as a just-in-case-possibly-someday resource.

Previous trip experience includes 4 acid trips through ages 18-20, and 5 or 6 mushroom trips through ages 22-24. I am now 32.

I took shrooms three times this month - the first was about 2.5 grams (more of a guesstimation). The second was 1.5 grams, and the third was 0.4 grams. Overall, beneficial. My first trip this month brought up hellish hallucinations that paralyzed me (Remember that these are extremely potent), and through that nightmare, I was able to see them as mental freeloaders and release them. I am a bit of a transformation junkie, and typically get it out of a hardcore "spiritual" (I dislike that word) practice that involves changing habits/thoughts with a obsessive sticktoitiveness. This has helped me make extraordinary changes over a number of years - without drugs/chemicals/what have you.

Anyway, the shrooms are cool. Quite beneficial. Can't say I would take them too often from this point on, though I am interested in occasionally micro-dosing - 0.1 or 0.2 grams, maybe 0.5 grams once or twice a month. My favorite thing about mushrooms is that they help get "me" out of my own damn way. The week after taking mushrooms is amazing; I feel like I am more myself, and that is a lot to handle. I am a very creative artist (self-employed), with my hands in many honeypots, and my mind is my greatest foe.

After these shrooming experiences, I read a lot on micro-dosing, and found a lot of information about micro-dosing with LSD. This got me thinking about the cigar shop lad, so I contacted him and got some this week. I had intended to micro-dose and signed up to buy two "hits". Unfortunately the "hits" were candy (large sweet-tart-like discs with grooves in the center, where the LSD was applied), so I wasn't sure how much a micro-dose would be. I took the tarts home with me, and the next day, with a hammer, I broke one of the tarts (under plastic) into five even almost pie-shaped pieces. I took one of the pieces and sucked on it - yum! Thirty minutes later, not really feeling any effects, I took another piece, so all-in-all, I ended up taking about half of one hit... WHICH DROVE ME INSANE. And I don't mean "I'm not real, there are bugs on me, the voices are telling me to burn down the local asian market" insane... I am a conscious person; far "too" conscious (you can never be too conscious) - and that may be why what I experienced was so harsh. It was just, as the title says, WAY, way way way-way-way-w-w-w-w-way too much information. I felt like I had been attached to Cerebro like Charles Xavier, only without any control, receiving the full mental force of the planet. We certainly live in an age of too much information. It wasn't that I was receiving other thoughts, but my own mind (I consider myself to be highly intelligent) was racing out of control.

In addition to being on mental overdrive, I felt nauseous and uneasy a lot of the time - which I know is normal for a lot of people. During my trip, I ended up eating a lot of healthy foods (carrots, kale, garlic, a protein drink) and taking supplements like fish oil, because I felt like my body was being eaten up by the chemicals. I felt I was dehydrating, got some some leg cramps, and eventually ended up losing a LOT of motor function towards the end - more than mushrooms, and those knock me on my butt at higher doses. This experience lasted 15 hours, which felt like 15 days. At the highest points, I was mad with laughter and doing self-inquiry/healing work. Mostly, I felt uncomfortable and "pushed" beyond my limits. I wanted a sleeping pill to knock me out, but the closest thing I had was Sleepytime Tea (El Oh El), which I took anyway. All in all, I'm just glad my head didn't explode, because at one point, I felt it would, and I was nearly pushed to crying. The day after (yesterday) was a complete burnout. I was left fried, with a swelling headache. Today, I still feel dizzy, with a slight head pressure, and slightly nauseous at times.

Aside from these harsh feelings, which seem to be waning, I feel SO much smarter. My attention span also feels sharply increased. I don't know if it is just part of the afterglow/aftergroan. Before and during the onset of my LSD trip, I asked, with intention, for increased intelligence. The body is smart. It felt like a birthing process. I felt like I was giving birth, out of my brain, for 15 hours. Birth isn't candy and roses, I know. Quick transformation is also NOT fun. But I said I'm a transformation junkie, so there. Now I am sitting here, feeling more electric. Will this electric feeling stay with me? Have I opened doors? I am curious. My first acid trips were NOTHING like this. I was not as conscious as I am now, and everything about me is different. I am also healthier than I have ever been. I have detoxed like crazy this year.

I am curious as to why this was so harsh this time. I never had a "bad" acid trip when I was younger, even when the first two trips were with street-level LSD that left my legs feeling weird the day after. They were fun and manageable. The only bad mushroom trips I had were due to external forces/people. Perhaps I am too conscious? Too sensitive? Perhaps I have reconstructed myself too much. Perhaps my circulation is too strong? I keep my circulatory system well maintained. Perhaps the batch was bad or somehow tainted/fake? So many questions. If half a hit did that, I can't even imagine what a whole one would do. The college student who supplied it assures me that it is pure. Cigar shop guy is his friend, and they live in the same building. They apparently take the same stuff that I took. If that is true, either I am too sensitive or they're too numb. I find most people numb compared to me. Is it normal to be nauseous a couple of days after tripping? Again, I have never had a trip experience like this. I do feel much more lucid today, but still queasy at times.

I am still interested in micro-dosing, but probably won't do it with the stuff I have. My mushroom guy seems to be a more reputable source, and has access to acid. Regardless, I will never take anything below a 10th of a hit of LSD in the future, as I am only interested in micro-dosing for experimentation. I am interested in optimization, not being in a trip hole. It would have to be very carefully done. I feel such an intelligence boost from this trip, as shitty as it was. It is remarkable. That's all I really wanted.

I am glad I had the experience, because I don't have to again. I hope this was at least somewhat entertaining, and that you got something out of it. I encourage you to regale me with any similar stories, as I love feeling connected through other people's experiences.