Today I realized......

Well I'm not trying to be rude here I'm just asking a simple question but were you in a 3 year relationship when you were 16?

And what is there to tell her? That I don't want her to be hanging out with guys who want to fuck her? Shit if she doesn't know that then I wouldn't know what to say.

EDIT: this was for drew

 

I was just saying that it is good to continually work towards bettering your open communications with your significant other. That's my advice, take it or leave it. I don't think that it would be helpful to compare the length of our relationships, because that really isn't a very reliable meter of the strength of a relationship, in my opinion. Not that I would have wanted to be in a relationship when I was thirteen, mind you. Different things for different people.

 

Yes I get your point.

And you just made me realize that it will be 4 years in march. I was actually twelve when we first started going out, but that doesnt really matter I just felt like pointing it out lol.

Shit, now I just remembered that some day I'm gonna have to marry her. Holy shit life is such a fucked up thing.

We have all these weird rituals like marriage and shit. It just trips me out sometimes lol.

 

Eh, marraige is a sham.


I don't believe you need to have a ridiculously expensive and elaborate ceremony to tell somebody that you love them

 

It's not just telling her that I love her, it's also a great excuse to throw a sick party and wild honeymoon sex.

 

you don't HAVE to marry her....i'm sure you know that tho

 

If I wasn't planning on marrying her someday I wouldnt have stuck around with her for this long lol.

But I get your point, it would be kind of weird being with someone else though. I can't even imagine it.

 

could you have imagined any of this (your current situation) five years ago?

 

Yeah, I liked her pretty much as soon as I met her. And for those two years that we were just friends I was always just trying to think of the right way to ask her out but then one day she asked me, talk about good luck huh?

I dont know why but I always had a feeling we'd be together.

 

Man, I was in a two year relationship from 14-16. I've regretted that shit so much, that age just isnt the time to be having a serious relationship..

If I had those two years back I'd done it so much different..

Time is so fuckin' weird,

 

Why is that a bad time to have a relationship? If you were still in that relationship you'd probably have a different thing to say.

And anyway thats different, going out with this girl was like my life dream and theres nothing I want more. It sounds gay but like when shit like that actually comes true it changes you as a person. Sof it thats not a good enough reason to be wih someone I don't know what is.

 

when i think about it im scared for next year cuz its all over after that sure i got college but im an adult and shit and gotta take care of my self

 

Yeah man, our lives as kids are almost over.

It's times like this were you just gotta go out and party as hard as you can! :cheers2:

 

Idk man, I think you'll see it differently in a few years, there's just so much stuff you can do at the age when you dont have as many responsibilities.

Tbh, I would have spent more time doing kid shit, if I'd have known lol.

 

i feel like my life would be a whole lot different if i didn't have a girlfriend for two years in high school (maybe 15-17). my life would be a hell of a lot different if i didn't have my current girlfriend of over three years too - better or worse though, i dunno. i'm very happy with the girl i've got now...it just makes you think.

you can think about "big" decisions like that - having a gf for a long time, deciding to smoke weed, selling weed and getting busted, selling weed again and not getting busted (the list could go on) - and see how if things were done differently, if you had made the opposite choice...your life would be drastically different.

BUT, how many everyday little choices make just as much of a difference, without us realizing it? maybe me choosing to type this right now, or a nap i took, or what time i decide to cook dinner, or spilling a cup of water which makes you be a little late for something, but ultimately saves your life. how often does shit like that happen?

OR, are these choices not totally up to us? given the same life experiences up until decision time, and with the situation being the exact same every time, would we make the same choice every time? is it just meant to be that way and there's nothing we could do? i guess you'll never know. it's easy to say "well i could have easily NOT posted this, or i could have easily chosen to leave when i stayed," but could you have really?! you can't go back, so you can't know.

 

wait til you finish college. L O L !

 

what if the everyday decisions acually make a big decision in our lives like going to a party or club, you might meet your soul mate there and that could have been the only place you would have ever met going to a party is n ot a big life changing decision but that you found you spouse there what if you didnt go to that party would you die a bitter old man alone or would you have a tring of failed marriages until you married some 21 year old stripper when your 87 and she slips some arsinic into you mashed potatos and kills you for all your money

 

Ive been thinking about this alot also.

I feel like i have been through so much in my short little life. Its scary, because i made so many wrong choices, which ofcourse made me what i am, which i am happy for, but still... Im affraid of living a shit life, doing and being exactly what i hate. And even if i fight it, and try to do what makes me happy, the shitness drains through and i just fear what it may make me ...

Im turning 18 in august. It seems i have waited my entire life for this moment. I wish it never came. I wish i could go back to high school, to life being so simple. I wish i knew then what i know now. Fuck. It makes me kinda upset to think about what my life has shaped up to be, what i have become. Yeah, im happy somedays sure... But fuck there has to be more to life then this... I struggle to fix everything, to force every decision i make to be a good one, but it gets so fucking hard. And then i just want to say fuck it all to hell, just spit on everything and run away from me. Become a new me somewhere else. I dont want to be that grumpy shihzoid 60 year old who tells young kids to stay in school, tells teenagers to appreciate what they have, tells his kids to do what you want in life, otherwise you will be like me, a sad old bastard with more regrets then memories.

Im affraid of never finding my place. Every place i found so far, i got quickly accustomed to and bored of. I never wanted to die of old age, i dont think i could hack it, i just wanted to greet the day i felt i was complete, and ready to leave, pay my respects and go. Finally face the most powerful answer...

 

you're exactly right man. for instance - the story of how i met my gf, and quite possibly my future wife. i was selling weed at college at the time (after getting kicked out of a different college for selling weed). that day i was going to some kids dorm to sell him a bag, and that is when she noticed me and took interest. she ended up calling me and asking me out to a movie and we've been dating ever since. still selling weed after getting in trouble for it was a pretty stupid idea obviously, but it all led me to her, so it's ok.

so it was the big decisions as well as the small that all led to that. the big one was still selling weed, the small one was going to that kids room at that specific time when she was there...

the 'mindfuck' of it all is how often does that happen when we don't realize it. i can look back and see how those decisions (small and big) led to the present, but how often does a small decision have a huge impact, but go completely unnoticed?

 

like all those people on 9-11 that were late to work cuz they over slept or the train was late and now they are still alive