I put this here as a witness in love and faith. Some of you know my story, know the twists and turns, the beautiful and painful of my life. You know that I have been lost, that I have died inside and waited for death outside. Now I've found the meaning of that death and all in my life before it. Christ the eternal mystery of Love is that meaning. God is that meaning. If any wish details on this conclusion please do pm. I've wrote enough of it here. On July 26 I will be donning the habit and answering the calling of Him in my life. Not as a monk, tho I will be taking vows of poverty, chastity, moderation, and obedience, but as an apostle of His Love. I will set forth in faith to bring this Love to all. I go barefoot and with only my bible, journal, and water into the world. I shan't carry money for I rely upon His Grace. He will guide and provide. If any wish to stay in touch I will have email and you can feel free to pm me yours. A special thanks to @Pete's Draggin' for reminding me of His Grace through your blessing. Wherever you are may you be blessed. God bless and to all His Love. RH
That's beautiful, RH. I was raised in a devout family. They go to mass a lot; every Sunday and then sometimes even if we're going out of town and there's a Sunday they go then too. I remember in my late teens I knew I had gone too far and I haven't really gone to church since then except to complete my confirmation (sacrament...). I find a lot of meaning in your words and hope that you're making a decision that you can live with because sometimes we have to choose between life as we know it, or Christianity. Those are the hard times.