Hello Everyone, I'm new here to your forum so please bear with me. As ridiculous and maybe laughable as this question sounds to you, I've wanted to ask it for a long time but haven't had the courage to do so until now so here it goes. I'm a 30 year old woman and I've never had any sexual encounter with either sex/gender. There was a time for a few months in my past where I was molested by my biological father when was 11 which I believe has greatly added to my fear of sexual intimacy with anyone. I'm also been terrified by the thought of sexual intimacy without having any feelings for a person first. I had crushes on guys but they were never reciprocated back especially with one dude who I think constantly but he's a gay man. I've started to have sexual feelings towards woman at around 17. I can't say I've ever had a crush on one yet. I've masturbated many times to women but they have only involved imagining kissing on the mouth, fondling/sucking of breasts and fondling of the butt. But... I can never get into the thought of giving her cunnilingus nor receiving cunnilingus from her, nor mentally get into scissoring no matter how much I've tried to masturbate to it. I just can't seem to get into the vagina sexually. I thought of having my first encounter or going out with a woman but my fear of her and I going down on each other is preventing my from doing so. I think can go as far as giving vaginal simulation though the hand/fingers/dildo but that's it. So my question is.... is there anyone who's a had an encounter or is in a sweet relationship where there isn't any cunnilingus performed on each other nor scissoring? Thank you all for your time and listening to my story and question.