Think I might be done.

but pussy plus drugs is brilliant

 

[ame]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aVOMovNybvE

 

16 years ago I did a hit of acid, just one (and at that time I could *easily* dose six or more... but not that time). It was called "death". I remember it sooo vividly, and, it was a very, very, very bad trip.

I recall having CEV of rats dying from strychnine poisoning and believing that "death" was going to be my actual 'death'. It was horrifying, and, I was jobless at the time, and that VERY day my mom had told me I had to go out and look for a job or else.

So, my thoughts were, "dose early, be down by lunch," and so I woke up at 7AM, dosed, drank some whiskey and smoked a few bowls, took a shower, and then BOOM! It hit me like a train wreck. By lunchtime I was just barely peaking, so, thinking at that time that I was dying of strychnine poisoning like the rats in my hallucinations. So, I did some reading from an herbal guide that I had, and found that kava kava apparently counteracts strychnine.

Little did I know it was *also* a MAOI, which probably potentiated my trip.

Anyway, I rode my mountain bike something like 15 miles under the guise of "job hunting" (along the way, I hallucinated "god" reaching an arm out of the clouds above me down toward me, that further scared me with death on my mind) to this herb store that sold kava kava, bought some, and as I was leaving the store was eating it by the handful--I got some weird glances from the shopkeeper.

Next stop was to my buddy's place who played in the band Caustic Resin, and occasionally I guess with Built to Spill. I was still peaking and it was now around 4PM. I was so scared at that point that I wasn't going to come down, rather than feeling like I would die.

I rode my bike over to another buddy's place and drank more whiskey, smoked more bowls, and hung there 'til I finally started coming down. I then called my mom, she came to pick me up, I played normal, but I WAS NOT IN MY RIGHT MIND. Something had really, really changed (eventually I ended up in a rehab center, but that's another story altogether). All that following week I felt totally out of it, and, towards the end of the week I did a bit of speed and BOOM! I was back in that place. Well, that's the short and thick of it, but alas, it was 16 years before I dosed on another hallucinogen, and about two years again before I even smoked out again. Even then, I rarely did that, and eventually even took a five year break from that.

But the point is, I ended on a SUPER sour note, and many, many peeps told me that if I dosed once more and had a good time, perhaps I'd come to my senses.

I can certainly say that over the years, benzos helped here and there, but after my long, dry spell I finally took some E and had a wonderful, wonderful time and like I'd been told, I came back around and here I am to totally support you, but I must confess, don't do as I did and end on a bad note. It WILL stick around to haunt you.

 

awesome band!

the rest of that sounds like a terrible mind set to do acid.

was the one hit exceptionally potent, or was it just "time?"

 

i gotta say that part resonated pretty hard for me. not 100% my case, but still..

 

I think, I can't say for sure, but I think it was just "time" for a break. I'd done LSD over 100+ times in less than two years during that period, perhaps even 200+ times, and generally it was dosing around five hits a time.

The guy I got that one hit from had eaten two ten-strips at once and was fine, so I don't think it was the hit itself (though I may have gotten a super saturated hit; you never, ever know with blotter).

But I know I'll never *totally* shelve psychs. They're just right at just the right times.

I don't know if I've ever had a spiritual experience with them, let alone do I even know if I believe in a god or afterlife, but I do know I've had problems evaporate and have had moments of enlightenment from them.

And BTS is a totally awesome band. It looks like you and I share an affinity for a lotta the same bands. I'd LOVE to see Rogue Wave play, especially for free! Where the hell are they playing a free gig? I usta live in Oakster-town where them boys are from

 

yes!

 

The last time I wanted to stop for a while (I gave myself a year, but it turned out to be a two year break) like a week after I decided to stop some lsd came around. And I knew I had to at least try it before I went on my break, as I had no idea when it would show up again. I ate two strong blotter tabs, had a great trip... then stopped alltogether for two years until it felt right again.

Now, it has stopped feeling right just like last time and I decided to take a break or maybe even quit. Then once again Lucy came knocking at my door. I have not known where she's been ever since I've last seen her.

I'm taking this as a sign. I'm gonna repeat my old cycle, dose on some good ol' lsd... and then see where that leaves me.

It's too much of a coensidance to ignore. It just seems fated.

 

what compounds have you taken? because there's a lot out there

 

Me?

Mushrooms (About 30 times)
LSD (Once)
DXM (Close to 40 times)
2c-e (5-6 times)
2c-i (6-7 times)
Methylone (about 10 times)
Salvia (Twice)
4-aco-dmt (Once)

 

lol increase dose

 

You are like an intelligent peter popper

 

Not getting the reference.

And you increase dose! I'm gravy where I'm at.

 

B/c he wants to fuck girls?
Don't you?

 

:rofl:

 

Hahahahaha.. that's why I love this kid.

 

No, I think it is because of the general "I love psychedelics, but they really fuck you up and screw with your brain" mentality.


And if he starts talking about women the way good old peter does then....that would just be sad and he would also require a baseball bat to the knees....IMHO.

 

But I haven't seen that mentality (at least not in this thread).

Guy just said he was gonna quit because it has stopped feeling right, and he came with some legitimate complaints (he hasn't gotten what he's looking for, they've become a source of mental confusion, doesn't want to partition himself off from the rest of society).

He even praised them, called them fascinating, interesting, enthralling, enticing, nice.

I just don't think it's fair to compare him to probably one of the worst posters of all time, peterpopper, who not only seems intentionally offensive but is also probably a rapist, for making a comment about wanting to have sex (which is a desire we all have).

I think he's honest and a lot of these kids could probably learn something from his quitting.

 

So go take a break, nothing wrong with that.

 

Oops, my bad, seems as though he already views women the same way as good old peterpopper

I also find it humerous that you, neodude, make a remark like this;

Don't you mean us kids. You are only 21 correct?