The New And Improved, What Are/ Have You Been Doing Today.

Just finished a good 4 day drinking/eating binge with my ladies familia.

Now I'm sitting in a grey hound bus with enough Xanax in my system that I'm contemplating doing the macarena while standing in my seat.

You think others on the bus would smell a bit of reefer if I went for a one hitter break in the bano?

 

Drunk crying.

 

Internet is being a shitter, the wireless isn't going so I can't use my laptop.
That was a great sleep, too long though.

 

Taking photo's and fixing vans

 

Over-complication and procrastination is not a good mix in my head. Feels like I'm being melodramatic. I'm going to put a big sign on my wall saying "calm down"

 

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Cheers Glen.

 

Had a quick skate for 5 minutes outside. Already back in covered in sweat. It's bloody hot and humid!

Realised too that the hole in my shoes, meant I ripped my socks the other day and started grinding part of my toenail down when I went to the skatepark.

 

^^^^^that ain't no fun. Happened to me way too many times.

My boss quit so I've been having to work with the owner of the company. He's got no idea what he's doing so I've been having to pull these 7-7 shifts which suck enormous testi's.

Just went through some fucking SHIT with my lady. As much as I don't wanna come off like a bitch it's seriously has taken a toll on me emotionally. Every rational thought in my head tells me to draw the fuckin line there, but I don't want that at all. All I've wanted is just a honest, pure relationship with her and have done everything in my power to do so. I know I've been billions of 2nd chances in my life but this shit sucks. Supposed to take some time away and talk to the fam and friends for a bit, but I dunno what that is gonna help. What's done is done. I either have just ridiculous hopes or just a fucking retard and the latter is seeming more true. I wanna believe things can work out, and that's what I want but I dunno if I can pull myself to believe anything coming outta this chicks mouth anymore.

Rantmode, sorry.

 

Ahmad, if the negatives outweigh the positives, draw ze line and get oot.

I had a nice lie-in (but I always feel crappy about having lie-ins). I slept at the othe end of my bed. Was lovely. Stayed in glass from 1-5pm, was awesome. Got lots done ^^

 

Lawls. It's sorta snowing here.

 

You can't just do a Pos / Neg analysis of a relationship, there's a huge investment of time and effort, you need some sort of cost-benefit analysis.

Kinda joking but more srsly, you can't just draw a line under something because it doesn't suit you any more, a new relationship will take time effort and money and is not necessarily going to be an improvement.

 

Interview went well although will not get job. Negative HDH is negative.

 

What happened?

 

But staying with someone just because a new relationship will take more time isn't a good reason at all >< If it's making you unhappy, or it just isn' working anymore, quit it. I stayed with my last two ex's for too long, I was waiting for it to get better, but it never did. Never say "let's see how it goes"

 

:O Did they tell you you won't get it?

 

No, but I've never gotten a job where the interviewers have been women. I give off vibes to most women, it's not something I can help.

 

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I don't even remember posting that!!! LOL thanks for the hug Glen!

 

Mine has a graph, I win.

 

I live for points of inflexion

 

That graph made my day.

If it was a positve vs negative thing then hands down the positives would win. I've lived with this girl for over two years. I love her, not just her at her good times. Her dumb times, insecurities, weird cravings, laugh, feet, burps. Positives and negative sides both make up her. This is just a fuck up. Ex boyfriend bullshit that I gotta hear about from someone else. Lack of honesty. Now I'm just hearing everything I would want to be told. Like she just magically changed. I've done a lot of stupid shit but I'm no fucking dumbass.

There's always other chicks, but one I was down for like this. Nah, I wouldn't say too many.

Shit happens. Just gotta figure if putting myself in the exact same spot is a good choice. No one likes feeling vulnerable.