That pivotal moment when curiosity meets reality.

Most of us have been there when it becomes a reality and are face-to-face with either following through or bailing out before anything happens. We are either desiring something else, or curious about indulging into something else outside of our predominately heterosexual lifestyle.

Do I dive in headfirst, or do I bail due to the lack of courage to do so or by the cultural raising that reigns me back. Many things go through our minds when we do place ourselves within inches of another man's cock expecting us to deliver the expected oral satisfaction which brought the two of you together.

I was curious, very curious and seriously turned on by guys with bigger cocks than my very own 8". I found so many on "CL" who were deprived married men in dire need of oral satisfaction. That first time for me was life changing for sure.

I conversed rather quickly via email with this man for about 40 minutes, luckily, we were both online at the same time. He was wanting a blowjob and willing to reciprocate if need be. I found myself wanting the cock (he posted a photo) to suck on whether he sucked mine or not.

Well, the ending to this was fabulous for me as within 2 hours of conversation via email with him I was between his legs sucking his cock and balls until he unloaded his load of cum into my eager mouth to swallow. His pleasure was met as well was mine as I was escorted out of his home with the taste of his "cum" within my mouth on the drive home to unexpectedly greet my wife at the time who was horny as hell. She never knew anything; I could still taste his cum within my mouth while passionately kissing my wife. How did she not taste or smell it? Had I just eaten out another woman's pussy I am sure she would have gotten the scent of her pussy.

Anyway, I sucked his cock, swallowed his load of cum, and returned home to have sex with my wife as she sucked my cock and swallowed my load and continued sucking me hard again, so I was able to fuck her and ejaculate deep inside her desirable pussy.

Bisexuality would never be discussed with her, but unknowing to her after 25 years I was desiring cock more-so than pussy.

 

Yes, of course it was a pivotal moment in my life as well, one that changed my life forever. It was 30 years ago in an arcade booth with a gloryhole. I was both very excited and very scared at the same time, and when that beautiful cock came through the hole, all my fantasies came streaming down into this very surreal experience. This was it!

I placed kisses up & down on that cock before finally opening my mouth, and tasting that beautiful piece of cockhead. This fired up a desire in me that was different than I'd ever experienced, but, as you say @thepapasmurf, it felt natural and ME! It still felt surreal, almost like I was both having an out of body experience watching me do this and connecting with the truth of me actually sucking another man's cock, but I was also just diving into the experience and loving it.

21 years later, and over 200 cocks later (and only one girlfriend--and female lover--in my entire life up until then), I had the second most pivotal moment of my sexual life, when I was face-to-face with a guy's ass that I was lusting for like I've never desired for anything before. This time it did not feel surreal, and I had no fear whatsoever. I just had utter excitement, joy, and uncontrollable desire as I tonguefucked and cockedfucked that incredible male asshole. It not only felt 10 times more natural than my first cock, but felt 100% me like nothing had ever felt before.

30 years after that first cock, and even more men, involving both oral and anal sex (and only one additional girlfriend--and female lover), I am now "as we speak" in the beginning stages of actually dating a gay man whom I am really falling for. Pivotel #3?

 

Soon, I hope.
I found an ad on personals where a guy has a glory hole in his home using a curtain with a photo in listing.
I'm travelling I almost called but didn't. How would get there is it far or close etc.

Looks like he's posted weekly offering Blowjobs.

I want to try but a little shy too.

I don't think I could suck a guy at a glory hole but I'm not sure I know how I would react in a meet.

It's rare I think a guy is attractive, I would just like to try sex in a clean safe environment but if I met up I hope I could relax, lose my inhibition and get hard, as well as suck cock.

 

This is also an observation I’ve been seeing quite often. I really want a full relationship with a man, not just the sex. But it seems most men I meet want just the sex.

I want to do non-sexual things with him too. Go do volunteering, climbing, go on travel adventures, sit down and have a meal/conversation together with no-sex afterwards.

I’m on A4A right now and it seems everyone I meet says they’re open to a LTR but it’s soon revealed they only want the sex. For me it’s a bit discouraging since I really want more than that.

Hope I didn’t derail the thread! Just thought to comment on what you mentioned. But then maybe my comment is a case of curiosity meeting reality?

 

Yes, I think you are curious about a LTR, and hope that the curiosity meets reality.

The on-line and cruising approaches did not work out for me. I only met the blow-and-go types. What finally worked was telling my male friend (known and respected him since childhood) that I've stayed in contact all these years because I love him. So, the relationship was built first, and the physical intimacy came much, much later.

I recommend building the relationship first, maybe through doing those activities you love.

 

The first time a girlfriend of mine wanted me to let a girlfriend of hers watch me suck another guys cock was a pivotal moment. She simply blurted out that I like sucking cock, her friend shrieked in surprise and laughed. I was in shock, felt like running, the girl immediately said she wanted to watch.
It took several minutes for me to recover and give in. It was of course a lot of fun. I don't regret giving in, it led to my acceptance of what I like and being okay with it instead of being so shy and afraid.

 

That feeling of guilt must've been killer! I'm surprised it didn't happen immediately post nut. Maybe there was alcohol involved?
Anyway I'm so glad you got over the guilt. It should've never been there in the first place anyways.

 

It's that moment when years upon years of wondering, fantasizing, naughty thoughts, online chatting and denial, have boiled to a point where it no longer becomes a want, but a NEED...The urges compulse you to find the courage necessary to taste that forbidden fruit

 

We both promised to try bi and my wife had her experience years ago. For a long time she tried to get me to do it with her/our gay friend. My needs over powered my past reluctance and I did it with him alone the first time. Id be lying if I said I never thought of it . It was the first time I was able to stare at another guys cock. He put his hand on my cock and I followed suit. My cock started to droul precum and he leaned down and licked it, then took in the head and proceeded to suck me. He didn't suck me to orgasm and stopped for a min. . That was the moment of truth. Touching it was nothing, but when I took his hard cock in my mouth I knew I had crossed the line. I proceeded to suck it, like I would like to be sucked and he responded with pleasurable groans. I remember thinking, This is easy and seems like fun, which spawned my desires to test the waters. I knew I had control of my gag reflex and was able to bury my face in his pubes when I engulfed it. I stroked the shaft hard as I sucked it and he spasmed and shot into my mouth. All I could think about was what to do with a mouthful of cum. I did what my wife would do and that was just letting it fall out of her mouth back onto me. I continued to stroke his cum slicked cock until his cock shriveled up in my hand. He didn't waste any time and pushed me back on the sofa and started sucking my hard cock again. I wasn't long before his stroking my shaft and sucking the head had me ready to blow. I told him I was going to cum and he cupped my balls and eagerly sucked my cock as I filled his mouth with my cum. He didn't loose a drop and swallowed it all, squeezing the last drops and licking it up.. That was my defining moment.

 

I had been curious for a long time before I acted on it, even surprised my self once while I was out fishing once and came upon a guy who was nude sunbathing, I engaged him in conversation and he caught me looking at his cock. I think he knew I wanted to suck him and he shifted his seated position so I no longer had a view of it. I took the hint and didn’t ask him if I could.
It took several years before I could muster up the courage to stop at a cruising spot I knew of and get a bj from a guy. I felt very guilty for having done it and didn’t repeat the experience for several more years.
The desire to pursue sex with men just doesn’t go away, I have tried to deny it several times. It intensified once I finally took the leap and gave a man a blowjob, it felt so natural and exciting. I had no experience but I just did what I thought would feel good. It evidently did because the guy came in my mouth in just a few minutes. I was a little freaked out that I had another man’s cum in my mouth but I also had the satisfaction of knowing that I made him cum.

Well I was hooked, I loved it. But I still felt conflicted and guilty. That was several years ago, and more than a few cocks ago. Every time I think I can give it up I find myself wanting it until I find myself on my knees with a beautiful dick in my mouth enjoying it. At this point it seems undeniable that I’m bisexual.

 

When my friend Garry was lying on a couch with old Mike's cock in his mouth, and his nice 5 incher right in front of me, Mike says 'go on, suck it', between contented sighs. It was now or never. I slipped my mouth over it and sucked him. A muffled UUghh told me I was doing it right so I sucked every which way I could think of. I love it but haven't hooked up for years. The person has to be someone I get on well with. I don't want to go any further. That puts most off.

 

That's fair. I'm not sure I want to mess around with any of my friends but then I don't think they are interested.

Either way you need to see something in the person.

Kudos to those who can do a random hook up and go for it.

I could hook up with a random guy for NSA fun but would have to see something in them and it's hard cause I'm interested in testing cock I'm not so into guys as such.

 

Yes these guys were contacted on a hookup site but I clicked with them because they were friendly, clean and as horny as me. I have no long term friends with any clue about this. It's best to keep it that way I suppose.

 

When my gf came after a pre arranged meet. I knew he'd fucked her but didn't know my reaction. She lay back on the couch and opened her legs wide. Her thong was stained dark with his cum and there was this amazing scent of semen and hot wet pussy, I looked for a long time, inches away, captivated by everything seeing another man's spcum stwrting to ooze through the material. and I then started to lick her tasting his spunk and I was instantly hooked. That sharp bitter taste in my mouth and in seconds in had my face buried in her pussy, desperately,licking deep inside her to taste another man's cum