I really want to have sex with men, being bottom and giving bj etc. I've done it once in secret. But how do I go about bringing it up with my wife to see if it's something she would allow openly? We rarely have sex anymore. Twice in the last year, both times we had to stop because she was sore and I didn't finish, and it's been similar for a long time. Years ago when we were teenagers I talked about wanting to try things, and she did actually say to try it with a man, but I think that was said reluctantly and more as a test, so I said no. But I do want to
I would not wait another second to tell her how you feel. It seems your relationship is likely doomed anyways if you are trying things in your own in secret and are hardly ever having sex together. Do your wife a favor and let her make the choice. Let her know that if you cannot try things within the bounds of your marriage then likely it is best to move on. Just be honest.
This seems drastic but its the best way out of it. If you cant be in a sexless marriage and you don't want to lie to her you don't have much choice. Im sure if you tell her how you feel she will respect that. Maybe she will be fine with it, knowing its only sex and only with men she wouldn't feel the relationship you had was threatened