Oh mamas, I need help! My illness is affecting how I react/interact with my sweet baby James! I posted in Mental Health about it too. This morning, J was being particularly aggressive nursing. I just couldn't handle it, I pushed him away. He had a meltdown. I had a meltdown. The end result was the two of us sobbing in the bed, baby trying to pull my arms away from my breasts to continue nursing, me begging my husband to HELP ME! He woke up for an instant and feebly shushed J before rolling over to sleep again. It's not J's fault! I just feel lost and neglected. I am screaming for help and nobody is listening!