Supermodel Envy....

I think the real threats to a girl's insecurity are the comparisons that can be made to her in the "real world." Conveyor belt models don't make me insecure- in case you didn't know, they don't actually look the way they're presented in magazines.

It's when a guy I'm into expresses adoration for a woman who I look nothing like, and who is accomplished beyond her looks, that I become really intimidated and insecure. The guy I'm obssessed with has a Lauryn Hill fantasy. She's not your typical super-model beautiful, but somehow even more beautiful because she's real- and an Ivy League scholar, women's and minority rights activist, actress, mother of a whole bunch of Marley babies, and one of the most talented singer-songwriters of our time. So you can't just say, "real women don't look like that" because she couldn't be any more real. I feel so disenfranchised because there are so many REAL women I can't compete with.

 

In a world of individuals, comparison is ludicrous.

 

I don't usually compare myself to anyone either... but sometimes, just sometimes I guess I can't help it. I did research for a paper on "pro-anorexia" sites, and they were really scary. It had pictures of girls who you should aspire to be, and they were nothing but skin and bones. I hope I would never ever look like that. But sometimes, when I'm watching tv and I see these actresses, I wonder if my boyfriend would rather me look like them. But for the most part, I'm very happy with my sexy self. By the way, DancerAnnie, love the haiku in your sig. Did you write it?

 

Nope LotusBlossom wrote it for me! It was so sweet, I couldn't help but put in on my sig. What a sweet boy!