so I am 28 been straight all my life I never had struggled with women all my life but the last few years I’ve been incredibly turned on by certainly ain men mainly older I fantasize about being a bottom but to the right man & sucking dick not just anyone I kinda feel like I would need/want a emotional connection to do it I’m kinda confused/scared. I like wearing women panties under my regular clothes(haven’t come out) it turns me on so much tho. I’ve never had a gay experience to closest thing was some guy was rubbing my ass in an elevator one time and it was so hot but I didn’t know what to do or how to react but that’s it. I love the idea of beings someone’s slut behind closed doors hanging around naked or in lingerie. Thoughts? Ideas? Tips? 5’10 185 built real good shape have abs
It's not always easy dealing with same sex fantasies but until you're able to physically experience it your desire to do so will most likely not go away and in many cases you'll continue to be thinking about it and wanting it more and more as time goes by. Also understand that what you are feeling and thinking about is completely normal as many men go through what you are going through as do women but it's a bit more difficult for a man as society has indoctrinated us to think that it's abnormal, wrong, a sin for two men to pleasure one another with sexual acts. I felt the very same way until I began to experience mutual oral with other men. I did so on the down low while in a marriage with a woman and the desires to orally pleasure another man grew stronger with each experience. I too found myself wearing my wife's panties and masturbating while wearing her garments. My feminine side needed released and I was doing so comfortably with other married men. Being they were also married to women and enjoyed the pleasures of mutual oral with other married men I quickly accepted that what I was enjoying with men was quite common and normal to do so. I assume you are single so one would only assume you'll have much less guilt to deal with other than maybe struggling with accepting whether or not you are gay, heterosexual, or bisexual. That too can be a struggle to deal with but until you have an experience with another man you will never know if it's something you wish to continue or let go of completely. Now, finding a willing partner to share that experience with maybe more difficult but I suggest you pursue your fantasy and any desires you have. Good Luck
You’ll really never know unless you try it .Could be just a fantasy or could be something you completely enjoy and it becomes a part of your sex life.As long your safe I doubt you’ll regret it
