Gotta find a way to convince yourself that you don't give a fuck so you can relax... it might help a bit... who knows?
yeah. i already told her through a text. she says she doesn't know how she feels about it right now...which is like a nice way of saying that it isn't gonna work out. whatever, im not devastated by any means, i just wished it would have played out. it still may, too...but...i dunno.
Best thing... put it out of your mind for the time being... be politely aloof with her... no cold shoulder but don't push the issue in case she's actually mulling it over. Giving her space to make up her own mind will work in your favor if she's interested to any degree- and if she isn't, it's useless to dwell on. You're an artist... paint her something.
yeah i definitely don't want to hang out with her as much as i have been, just because i was getting too into her... hmm...i have a lot to think about i'll be painting something for sure...if i want to give it to her or not is something else...
i really don't see why this is a problem O: if you just like someone, your friends will probably tease you about it. if you go for getting her, they'll tease you about sex and fun things like that haha. thats what friends are for, haha. you don't always have to hang out with this girl and your friends, you can hang out with who ever you want.
thats life i dunno...i dont think that it is necessarily a done deal and set in stone, i just am kind of really bummed right now just cause i really do like her and she doesnt deserve the kind of shit she has been through. im not gonna just give up and say fuck it, she left me with a sense that there could be something. i just have to show her that not every dude is going to be a fuckin asshole. i just dont know what to do for her, i dont want to dig myself into a hole and make myself undateable lol
Don't get too down about it... start looking at yourself as a catch and carry yourself accordingly... not to the degree of arrogance but with self confidence from knowing that if she does shut the door on a relationship with you then it is her loss. I've found that most of the time when people seem to be on the receiving end of limitless shit, they brought it on themselves in one way or another. I'm not telling you that this is necessarily the case but don't be surprised if it is.
thanks man...i do see things that it'd be her loss, but i can't help to feel like shit anyhow im just tired