Stoned Ramblings

Is that bud sitting atop a record?

 

A very shitty old laptop. Don't buy used things online here........

 

hey so if anyone cares (my brain says this is no one, but other parts of my brain know, some might care) hubby is home now and carrying the meager weight of the portion of my depression ive laid on him...

ultimately i just really need to be supervised, a little bit. checked in on within 24 hours. it would help.

once again, the SL has provided the human presence and care that i needed. i thank you. you are my internet family. <3

 

this is late for Jeffs birthday.., but whatever..

 

Pretty sure r0llinstoned uttered those same words at some point in his life...

 

what a coinkydink ...I set of a bunch of fireworks tonight for hot divorcees kids birthday.....set them off over the canal...only 1 of all of them was misfire....it fell over

 

i love crackers. i eat saltines by the hand ful ( "are you preggers? NO mothafucka, i just ike em, saltines dont do shit for me when im preggers, its a lie!")

im mad. the one person, who, even without any degree, has been dealing with me for 14+ years, should be able to support and help my state is woefully incompetent.

fun. guess ill just hang tough, eh? wish i were dead, no one else seems to wish any different...
where the fuck are you reaper? you lazy, and rude.
come take me you sissy fucking pansy pants.
ive waited long enough, suffered long enough. this sucks. death would be quieter, even if just for me.

 

I Make a good tomato soup. I thicken it up with cream and add C shape pasta and diced up sausage and bratwurst. It's good.

 

I meant crackers as in fireworks BTW. Lol

 

Well shit.

 

I hope you're seeing a counselor or something. I'm lucky to have found a really good shrink but it took a lot of looking around. He experimented with various medications until we found a combination that works for me. Don't give up.

 

no....I about had a yellow jacket in my britches



and its much much better by the way. lol

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Firecrackers made with cashew butter and weed are the best.

I've also decided that if decarboxylation were to make my crackers any stronger, I couldn't handle it. lol

I find it to be fine to decarboxylate when you make butter...but I still prefer the easily made and lovely firecrackers just made purely from weed from the baggie.

 

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Thats your depression talking, you know your husband and your kids both need and want your presence, even if they take you for granted, even if they dont make you feel like it all the time...they still need you

And what tumbling said...i hope you can talk to a professional soon

 

There are different machines and sometimes they do not even warn of the air coming. My eyes do not trust those machines anymore..my eyes flinch and hardly even open. One doctor I went to recently checked the eye pressure by touching the eye with an instrument,I prefer that.

 

i AM grateful, you are super sweet.
i think my situation is beyond help/ prayer.

it will take a death to change it.
i am resigned.

i guess i hope i survive, but o would be as happy not surviving...
so whatevs...
if bad happens, you guys will know. its in my instructions.

 

i dont have time for shrinks. hubb works too much. and they would say my relationship isnt healthy, well no shit.

i have neither the funds, nor the time, for "qualified" help

it you, me, and death/ hopelessness.

better not let the SL fall by the wayside i guess, its all some of us have.

 

I just enquired to a salon about this and how much and when can I do it. This just might be my new hair for a while. minus the curls. I like straight hair. But the colour is what I'm going for.

 

They give up on me every time. My eyes are very sensitive to light and the doctor always has a huge one when trying to do this.

 

Do it! Thats awesome

 

I had blood red hair for a while in high school. Kind of jealous of all the ladies who can do crazy colors now. Purple, red, or sometimes gray like an old women. Those girls probably drive their moms nuts.