Stoned Ramblings

NoxiousGas is banned??

 

Sorry that you're going through that ML. Depression sucks and mental health care does as well, even here, and we're supposed to have a good system.

 

first: thank you. it is crappy, and i am still resistant to the idea of diagnosis and meds. so theres no point looking for much help. everything, as always, is on me. fun.

second OH MY FUCKING GOD. the neighbors decided on tomorrow for the yardsale. surprise. hubby isnt here to sort his stuff. im not at all ready. but its 3 households so ideally you get more buyers. but im not a haggler. i cant believe i have to deal with this stress right now too.
i think ive done it. im broken. ive reached critical stress. i have kids to take care of, things ive agreed to, no emotional support. i have no coffee. like. fuck me, right? except i dont get that either.
there has never been a better moment to run away.
hahahahahaha
i better level up if i survive the next two days.

 

funny how i like the blue dream bud, but dont like the vapor at all. Its nasty. I had taste test of a few other my friend has. and Ill be honest. Northern Light, Lamb Bread, Golden Ticket, White Rhino. few others I cant think of but I didnt like any of them. they tasted perfumey to me. so much Im hesitant to even hit them. and they all have the same color too..
now PA medical vapor are different colors, darker, even greener. My favorite already is the Mendo Breath. Very perfect mellow high, pain relief on tops .. tastes really good and not punchy to the lungs. deep hits are easy but not needed.
I do like the Lime Skunk and Banana Split. Combined these 3 make everything well.

 

Okay... This, right here, is some serious shyt!


Sorry you're being put through the ringer... Take care.

 

Great Big Hugs!

 

This happened today...

 

And....

My front patio garden.

 

Looks great!

 

Your painstaking work is definitely paying off.

 

Is that spark of light in the window to the left emanating from your forehead...

 

Nice. Makes me think of the Brady house.

 

Yes...

 

tried the blue afgooey today...happy with it

 

I saw this woman at the party that I know from somewhere ut for the life of me I could not remember where from....I didn't want to e that guy ''hey dont I know you from somewhere''......she will be at the wedding so I will wait and see if I can place her.....they live in an area where I used to hang out...she may have been a waitress somewhere back in my bar daze....Italian girl so I may have even met her at an Italian function when I was married

 

Kitteh is turning into a handsome young lad

 

im disassociating bad. i guess its a good thing for once, im choosing to put a lot on the chopping block, including baby stuff, which i otherwise would not be able to go through. but i know i will pay the price afterward. i am in a bad way. if i was my friend, i would show up and be supportive.

so on top of everything, i feel terminally lonely. everybody leans on me, and im sinking in the mud.

 

sorry to hear this ml..I wish I could offer more support.

 

Seems people like to take instead of give. I've learned to just be there for myself and not expect anyone to be there for me,because I will only be let down. At least you can have online support and chat,on here. I've also had to kind of stop myself from continue to put others before myself. "You can't pour from an empty cup"

 

@motherslove Take care of and pamper yourself..wine, bubble bath, good scents and smells