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I get that way sometimes.. its nothing to worry about.. actually its kinda a good thing.. it shows that at times... ya just dont need to smoke weed.. maybe a growing up?(yea yea.. get pissed at me and yell all you 13-15y/os) but when you realize theres more to life than getting high.. its called growing up

 

Yeah, I've been clean for like a month cause there's this job I'm pretty much guaranteed to get, but they piss test. So I'm gunna get it pretty soon here, and I've never been more excited to return to the bud!

But it's weird though, because being clean for this long has given me a new look at being high, and sober. And I've learned to respect both those state of minds, which is what I'll be doing once I start smoking again.

 

oh...when you realize you need a reason to live except the shit youve been doing all those teen years...A goal in life, finding the meaning of life...

Yeah it happens

Life is suffering in a way.

 

dude im not pissed im just saying. ive been feeling really dull and tired of everything and i just dont want to smoke weed that bad anymore- itn nothing to do with growing up- more of realising that mj opens up ur eyes, once their open u dont need anything else, im saving up gonna get half oz in a few months and shit but i dunno i just feel really depressed and stuff and dont think weed is gonna make me happy again. i dunno i just feel really dumb for saying probably something ive never told anyone on a forum but im kinda tired of everything, tired of way shit is going and then look back to the people that have never smoked up before and how happy they are. kinda makes me think whether i needed mj in the first place, it really made me realise alot about my self nd im sure this will be over in a few weeks but for now i reckon everything sucks, i dont have the energy to do anything no-more, dont give a shit about anything- kinda like limbo. or maybe its the fact that ive hardly slept for time :S