Hey, your more than welcome to come school me, I swing both ways. I know what to do, but I'm usually very awkward and shy. My mind and body still react to sex like they did when I was 15, even when I'm enjoying it reguarly.
Alcohol is the very worst of things ~ but sobriety is a true bane that, if left untreated, usually leads to the worst sort of people...
Yeah alcohol isn't really my DOC, I just meant in the OP, that I can't imagine never drinking again........ I don't really care either, having a beer now and then is probably the least of my issues lol. I think I'd miss psychedellics way more.
Heh heh yeah, me too for sure. I'm a one beer drunk, but my body seem natural cut out for the rest rest of it...
I drank heavily and did lots of drugs for a few years. Now, I only smoke weed, and I don't even really need that anymore. Sobriety...to each their own.
i think about drugs way too much. Almost like my life revolves around it, and it is one of my main "goals" in life lol. Went to rehab went to sober living, all that happened is they make me wanna get fucked up way more.
Really? When I was 15 and lost my virginity, it was so painful and awkward and.. just a dumb experience. Now I love sex. Maybe you need to find the right partner to open you up sexually. That's how it was for me. I didn't even really enjoy oral sex before my current boyfriend. On the topic of sobriety... it's going to be one of those days.
Oh no, actually, I'm fairly certain that I've gone further into kinkiness and living out fantasy than the majority of people, and I also believe I've been more open and free than most (when it comes to sex, there is little that bothers me, and little I have yet to try, besides things which I perceive as disgusting and will never try). It was how I was able to embrace my sexuality in fact, from taking fantasy too far and coming to the conclusion of actually this is not just a fantasy, this is all that I want, lol. Only, despite that, until I become very close with somebody, I am very guarded and insecure, and shy, and I've only have sex with 5 people, and only 3 of them "real" sex. I've played around with a number of people and I don't really consider that to be having sex, so I don't count it. What I meant though, by how I respond to sex, is that even when I'm having it regularly, my body and mind respond as if I'm having it for the first time. In other words, I become hyper-sensitive and over stimulated and unless I take measures to combat this, I will orgasm within 2 - 3 minutes. I'm not ashamed of it and nobody I've ever had sex with has been disappointed, and many times I've had it last for several hours, starting sometime in the evening to find it continuing as the sun came up. But yea normally the slightest hint of sexual behavior with somebody makes me go completely out of my mind and if it doesn't commence immediately, I get myself all worked up. Really, I've noticed that I am always "kind of" aroused, it is the normal state of mind for me because of how I dress and how I interact with most people, and so I think when it's time for the real thing, I've been getting worked up sometimes for days. I don't know, I have a very curious sexual life, and I enjoy it greatly.
Oh okay I get what you're saying. hypersensitive and overstimulated... I thought you meant that you were uncomfortable with sex. I think I'm kind of always aroused too. Like, I could have sex or masturbate at any given time, and be extremely into it. Even watching something that in no way turns me on. and I think cumming quickly is very common for people that are hypersensitive. Honestly, that is what bothered me the most about being addicted to opiates for so long.. I stopped being able to finish, and it would drive me fucking crazy. It didn't matter how into it I was, how long I fucked for, or how attracted I was to my partner.. cumming was just out of the question. God, it's nice to have my sex drive back, lol.
Yes, thats true, it does definitely inhibit sex drive and I actually think it was a big part of the reason why my previous boyfriend (not that I have one now, lol) broke up with me. Our day to day interests began to drastically conflict, and it's a shame because he was gorgeous and most perfect in ever way, I can't imagine finding someone better than him and I have a real reason to doubt that I ever will, which is kind of depressing. I don't think I've ever met any human being who fit my ideal partner in every way like he did, well, except that he was Catholic (Italian, what do you expect) and kind of weird about drugs, especially psychedelics. Although he did say one time that if he were to ever try drugs, it would be mushrooms, so I had to congratulate him on that.
Well, is everything ruined 100%? Were you heavily into opiates while dating him? If he's perfect in every way, you should try to make things work :love: My boyfriends kind of like that.. prudish with drugs. I think it's cute though. The first time we tripped together, he went into the storage room in my basement alone and stood there for a while. I went in there and he looked so lost and confused, I just hugged him for a while. It was a really nice time all in all.. I also got him into opiates at one point, and he told me he still regularly thinks about them. Luckily, he has waaaaaay more self control than I do, and never really got out of hand with em.
dam u guys talk alot lol anyways just barged into town a mile away turning in my apps, after pulling all niter cause no weed, the whole time just thinking i will thank myself later when i have a job and can get drugs whenever i want. Ive got so many hooks its crazy. Def cant let all that keep goin to waste lol ;(
Yeah, too late for that tho. Still trying to sort my new situation, the girl whos putting together a 10 person house isnt getting back to me yet makin me kinda nervous. Already checked it out 6 br house pretty big 1 story. May or may not get my own room probly not. Too bad my dads a pussy whipped and wont let me come back home. Been a full year now still miss that house every day literally.
Yes, it's ruined 100% for us, unfortunately. Even if it weren't, he is the kind of guy who would refuse to even entertain the possibility of reuniting in that way, and I sort of don't blame him, he is too damn smart and I think he can even read the future lol.
I still drink a decent amount and smoke occasionally. But for years I smoked all day, was a complete drunk. Did a lot of pills, coke, mdma, shrooms. It's weird how I could always stop any specific drug even if I was using it to a serious problem level. I'm not sure I could ever completely quit alcohol, though.
sobriety is not its own object. being honest enough with yourself, to avoid screwing up the world, you, along with everyone else, has to live in, is. if you can do that, levitating through magic butterfly land, to each their own.
