So Apparently I'm Mentally Ill

firstly i want to apologise to this who have tried to help me and i've been a bitch to.

apparently the drinking, drugs, self harm and wanting to die is all part of a'mental disorder'. i still don't agree with this, but what i can do.

i don't know what i am doing. i know i am broken, but i don't know how to fix it. even my psychologist is pissed off at me.

i don't feel like i have anyone left.

 

Tipsy, you always have your hip friends..

Unlike the busy bodies, you have to go see, or them take your time up..

Hip friends come in all shapes and sizes, types, gender...

And you can tell em to piss off, and go have a brew!

You got hip tipsey, forever

 

Like Babs said You have us
Illness of any kind is not a crime and no one is perfect

 

You always have yourself even when you feel barely there. Dogs are good company too.

 

I'm too broken

 

Stop doing what makes you feel broke. Walk a path to wholeness. You can give up on drugs and not give up on drug culture. I haven't smoked cannabis in years just because it is strong enough to brake my balance. Guilty of still smoking tobacco and drinking alcohol. Mostly because I never did find a balance without tobacco as an adult.

 

You need to be in a new space... The old space is obviously not working for you. (physical space and mental space, they go together)

 

Give it time, you'll get used to it. Some kinds of insanity can be survived well.

 

I recommend that you find at least one person who is capable, willing to help, and who you trust, and then be wiling to follow their guidance. Ideally you would find a team of such people to help brainstorm on how to help.

Just because someone is a psychologist doesn't mean that they are either good at what they do or a good match for you. It's ok to "fire" them and look for someone who could be a better match.

Therapists differ in their approaches, and some approaches might be better for you than others. If therapy has thus far failed for you, just finding someone with whom you can build trust and feel safe with might be better than someone who is going try to push you to make more progress than you are capable of.

Well, you've got us!

 

Personally tipsy I think mental illness is a load of **** (insert expletive here). We don't even understand the human mind yet we claim to know when it is ill? We walk a path of suffering and as such must live with it. However that doesn't mean we must live by it. Also as you can see you've got friends here who care judging by the above replies.

 

i feel like a psychologist that gets pissed at his patients for having mental issues should probably start looking for another line of work.

 

Just sit back close your eyes and breathe. Good right. You've got this chicka don't doubt yourself. All will be well. The only way to really fix this type of situation is self examination if you can pinpoint what's going on. Then you are half way there. Because all you need to help yourself is mental clarity, the resolve, and telling everyone whispering in your ear to back the fuck off. It's time to quit doubting yourself and realize you have the will to make it. All you have to do is reach within and grab it. I know it probably doesn't seem like it's there right now, but it is. I have been in a similar situation many times, and each I have came back stronger. Just remember you are not alone we are all waiting for you to succeed, but we can only help you so far the rest is on you.
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Yea, I know how you feel. Life sucks. And sometimes people suck. So, pretty much everything sucks. It sucks.

 

^ This. Excellent advice. Most importantly do something constructive.

 

I think some of them do the job for prestige.

 

If I don't drink... things are worse.

I can't meditate.. my head is too much i cant do it. I have no friends left.

 

there is nothing if i stop. trust me.

 

I'm not going to try to force advice down your throat...I've been where you are now and know that you're unlikely to listen to advice anyway. But if you decide you want to talk about it send me a PM.