I felt violated after reading one of the poems on DS, so I felt the urge to run over here and purge my mind of that poetic garbage that floats up there. So thank you skinny for being out here. For knowing and sharing what poetry is really all about....
Yesterday's broadsheet pours history into the carvings on my table top. They remain undeciphered. This ball and mirror accuse me of wrenching them from safe, dusty antiquity. They stubbornly cloud and mist. The sudden enlightenment you gave me melted these wax seals. I cannot talk to angels, even though you whisper with me nightly.
Your obsidian stare tells me I must cut out my too quick tongue. I must round my shoulders, curl my spine, and slink away defeated. Your lashes flirt like the nine cat tails that cut my back in peacetime. My split tongue lashed at you and cut as deep. My Eve, you taunt me with your ignorance and I spark then die inside. Embers of frustrated fire remain, lie dormant, simmer. You will tease too far again. And I will again tear the air, torment you. Serenity will settle on you, as now. You bolted the doors inside, became a pacific island, suddenly free of timelines and laughter. I quiver. Regret. Bite back the air I tore until I puncture my own cheeks. The embers fight one last battle behind my skin, under the obsidian stare, that condemns me to this crawl.
The horizon looks quite firm today. A solid barrier, reminding me how far away you are. A wall where my dome of sky ends, trapping you outside and me in. It's experimental. A new day is born. From my viewpoint in the glasshouse centre, I bear witness to the mundane, the ongoing the business-as-usual. My spyglass elevates each building to renewed status in its brief sweeps. Each window glanced upon winks back, glorified. Curtains flutter in this new limelight, gape, revealing tonsils at the back of yawning mouths which greet another morning languidly. My spyglass measures weather. The morning sun will not stay long, scientists note, but long enough to con commuters into shirtsleeves. Rainclouds loiter round the edges, coming from somewhere beyond like marauding Scots. I can do more than note reactions to morning and weather. I can snoop the corridors of the Executive, peruse the folder marked For My Eyes Only. I can count the traders one by one off the train. See the markets begin their chaos as the City tumbles to life. But I can't see far enough away. The river sweeps in and out throwing dappled photos of infamous landmarks into the sky. My spyglass pounces on a ripple. Debris or dolphin? I can see that! But I can't see you.
I want to put saffron fingerprints on your brow. Every time it furrows I need to be reminded that you've welcomed my claim, allowed me to brand you and that I needn't panic. I want you to sign your tomorrows over to me. Every new day that breaks I need to be reminded that we share it, that yesterdays, todays and forever are one and that I needn't panic. I want to spray your coat indigo every time you leave. I want it to be visible across continents so when I wake and when I sleep I can see it and I needn't panic. I want to waste nothing of you. Every time you shower I will sweep up your debris and hoard it all to rebuild your comforting form in your absence. To remind me I needn't panic.
I am wearing the shoes of the wild bunch, the good time girls, the glitterazi gigglers, for one night only. I can spurn the uniform of intelligence, to fit out in sparkle. I can pose and swagger and flick in the masquerade. I can wiggle despite the headache. I can hobble and cripple myself for the sake of a party. I told myself. I queued dancing hopping from blistered toe to elevated heel. I entered a cavern of noise and swallowed. I stood observed smiled and was ignored. My grimace grew with my blisters. My hair disobeyed strict styling orders. I remain ill at ease with convention. This popular pastime is as alien to me as my books are to tanning salons and nail bars. And thus, my riposte to the individual was lost. The imposter was spotted, highlighted, mocked, and castrated. Last seen fleeing painfully.
Lets raise this up from the bottom of the page and let me say how much I love Tag! :sunglasse A certain someone found this 'disgusting'? "Every time you shower I will sweep up your debris and hoard it all" But I think its sentimental...
oh god...i know that all too well right now...you took the thoughts right out of my head w/ this one... i love reading your poetry skinny...i always have...you are so honest and true to life...you make people feel your words...when i read ur poetry i feel ur emotions and experience them with you...and your style is so refreshingly unique...i havent had time to read all of your poems yet...but trust me i will...never stop writing and thank you for this tread...
*blushes* thanks Skyfire! Can I take this opp to plug "kitty's litter"...if you like my work you'll love hers too.
i just liked this line. i'll read more later, but i have to go to work at the moment. i usually don't bother picking through these huge threads, because i don't like to have to fish through the commentary, but some of the stuff i've read from you is just plain intrigueing. (sp?) ~river
Thanks, river- from you that means a lot. And don't despair about the commentary - there's not actually that much! Thanks for taking the time.
Aww thanks for the plug skinny Soooooooooo sad...fabulously sad, if there is such a thing. You reign supreme over this kind of poetry, it's a pleasure to read over again.
This severed branch, my memento, once held me, fed me, told me stories in the air. Solid vines twist beneath the skin; such power, pulses in my imagination. Digits count my lashes, as I clutch this wrist, that comes to life in warm embrace or lies still and gorgeous in my box. And you, the one armed man, roam across the cobbles of Europe, run the desert across one palm and swim in circles. When I beckon, you feel phantom fingers beyond the thumping stump.
scattered sensible conversation. extinguished part-smoked cigarettes, licked nylon calves dampened dry clean only dispositions.
Well you already know I like Momento... Scattered Showers I don't quite get...sounds like a bit of 'life cynicism'. But I do enjoy each line by itself. You know now that I've read just the 2nd line of each "stanza" I get a feeling of an office or not...hmmm "dampened dry clean only dispositions." This stumbles me!
office feel is right....I watched people huddled under a ledge on their fag break in the rain... you need to include the title to understand each couplet, so: Scattered showers dampened dry clean only dispositions, dry clean only describing the suits they're wearing and also a starchy, at-work kinda mood. Helps?
So, sailor. These trinkets appease the wild woman who chained herself in faith and watched you leave. Full use of the pretty asset assured with dainties and darjeeling for the duration of this disembarkation. So, sailor. You encrusted the land locked damsel in spoils of the earth, rolled her doughy skin in sugar crystals wrapped the pastry morsel in banana leaves and devoured. Smiling, rummaged through the war chest, brandished spoils of exploration, told tales of daring and creatures and smells. So, sailor. Snoring now, bobbing on calm water in Indian heat. The wave of sea-shanties passed, my cliff base sucks shingle in hesitant calm. Slowly counts the rock pools, gathers them motherly. These are the shared memories where mountain bulk nurtures the sea salt jealously. So, sailor. Here's a supply of gentle flavour for you to lose in the spice of foreign ports.