^ I knew this button would work And.... Almost 12 hours later........ Relief, at peace and alcohol free.(for now) Namaste......
Checked My Keyboard.......And Can't Locate The Said Button......Can You Give Me Some GPS Co-Ordinates To Assist Me Please...... Cheers Glen.
weirdly. after a day of wanting to cry all the way home. i feel okay. and i do feel home, even with how weird this situation has got. even hearing some pretty tough things from friend who picked me up from train station. definitely random feelings. extremely tired. sad. resigned. hopeful. crushed. despairing. okay. all at once. bloody females.
i read it the less innocent way first. random feeling: pro-active. i booked my flights to new zealand for early december. i will walk and walk until i feel great again.
i feel like there is a melancholy and intense beauty to everything every object and feeling and thing existing that i can't see.
Kinda lonely. It's easy to know that the truth is I'm better without him, and easy to believe that the way to be is completely at peace and content by myself. But at the end of the day, after three years of having him there every night, being without it makes me sad.
hugs to you, whatever mine are worth, though i wouldn't count on them being worth much. just the wish. happiness is there in this world along with everything else.