Severe memory problems etc

i too drank about half a bottle of vodka and smoked weed. i never even really felt the alchole. its september holidays, i never went there to take acid. it just happened.

i have a good perspective, and i have a strong mind.
i think my girlfriend was saying to them how they wil be loosers doing nothing but working at subway, and how ill have finshed my diploma and will be a cop and so on. she was stickin up for me their, but sayin bad shit about me other times. and couldve come across as flirting with one of them. given this info, would u break up with this girl. as of now its as good as over, unless i go and see her.

 

It's cool that she's bein all the emotional support you need, and that's a good thing as long as she don't flip the coin on you while you're still low. But, while your there, you need to make yourself back into all the emotional support you need, and just know that you can do it, and the past is over and it's time to move on with your life and stop stooping back to the same old bad decisions. Just be responsible man, and do what you gotta do. In the end it's only you who can take all the good out of your life. Nobody else can stop you from making the moves, getting the job, etc.

Simply put, leave the self pity, regrets, and the past way behind

 

sounds like a crap time to take acid thats for sure

what did she say that was disrespectful to you

 

i cant remember exactly what she said, but it wasnt the best.

umm i guess she never really wanted to take the acid, but she did cause of me, she is only 17. she flipped the wall a bit, and was scaring me talkin mixed jibberish while we were alone together. so i cracked her mind. but i feel bad i guess. shouldnt have put her in that situation.

the other things which i dont like about her, is her past, shes had 3 somes, she has a kid which her mother looks after which is fucked, i got to slowly get involved with her when i was a bit a-wall and i didnt really take her having a kid into consideration, but now we get along so well and stuff, except for that night. but yeah, i dont like having a girl that has had 3 somes and i dont know how many partners, lost her vaginity at 14, had the kid when she was 16. so shes a stupid little kid.
shes latino im white, so theres that too.

i sorta just wanted to keep the relationship going cause shes hot and the sex is good. but shes not somthign i want to marry. do you think its ok to do that. we been together for 6 months, and shes helped me along my path and iv mostly stopped every drug, just did acid twice in the last 7 months.

this is an acid forum damnit, not relationshop counselining.
but yeah, certainly a werid thing to be stuck on coming out of an acid trip. like she said, it was one day in her life she wished never happend.

 

acid never did anything to my memory. but alcohol sure as hell does. ever since i started drinking more my memory is absolute shit. so i would say dont drink and your memory should be fine

 

dude thats totally fine. Just dont leave her with another kid. she obviously helped you see certain things in yourself. Youve been together happily, and she thinks highly of you in some respect.

But acid brings out lots of things in people and ways of seeing people. We shouldnt take these things lightly - if you saw something deep in her that you dislike, then thats a valid thing to feel less connected with her now.

I think the best thing you can do is assume that you will never be together, and then talk to her about what you felt on acid. if you just have an argument or get nowhere, then thats fine caus you arent together no more. if you realise there was a miscommunication then you can keep fucking. Or you can not say anything, and just keep fucking. That might mess with your mind a bit though, depending

 

hmm good advice. were still together things worked out ok.

and with the memory problems, i think its just in connection with being and feeling severly lost in the mind. lost as in days sift in to each other, severly affected perception of time and being distant, all in all is gonna leave you with a few memory problems, WHILE this is occuring. mind you my memory is good now.
so i gues it only occurs if you take alot of acid in a short time and get a bit lost and weird you will have a few problems including that of memory. simply thats it and it took a long time to figure out. im a headcase but at the same time im sweet.

 

it matters how.
yer brains gonna work different than they way it normally does. everthing you thought you knew could change in the blink of an eye.and thats not somthing everyones brain is wired for.i know the first time i realised what was really goin' on saw the light whathaveyou it was kinnda heavy, and thats probrally why i couldnt find the keys to my van for a week when they were on the floor.had nothin t do with the acid itself.

 

well put hats off, really hit the nail on the head

 

I met a guy who dosed every day for 15 years.
he was just some wacky artist...
so I have no comment.

 

i mean, sometimes i feel brainfucked after 2 days in a row. how was he not melted?

 

I'm not entirely sure...
he even posted his art on a photobucket, but I lost the link
he had THOUSANDS AND THOUSANDS of pieces!
digital, analog, carved CD's....
they were amazing...

he seemed quite melted, although he was very wise.

 

dood

 

I find that my intellectual mind is very stable.

However, the part of my mind that relates directly to me as a person in relation to other people and the world.. eg describing myself or my life, or storing a schedule of all of the interactions that occur between me and other people, the ability to maintain all of my commitments.. all this wanes with drug use.

But using my mind directly is nothing diminished by the drugs ive taken. Memory is not as good, no. But with sufficient understanding of how each moment links to the next, memory is not so necessary for many intellectual or creative tasks.

Unless time is of teh essence of course...

But in the end we are all different. We have different brains too. Some of us have different levels of drug receptors in different parts of our brains and some of us have different levels of organisation in certain parts of our brain, etc. so some people can maintain various types of thought regardless of drug use.

 

eg some people become totally unsocial with acid, other people blazenly mingle (abeit high on acid). Some people cant do maths while high, other people can solve complex algorithms. Some people cant draw straight lines while expended, and other people can only keep patience with a pen whilst in that state.

We should all seek to find the things that we can do while on drugs for they represent deeply ingrained traits of our personality. And we should know what they are, and revel in them.

 

3xi seems to continually think that im some self hating dumbass.

iv allways been easy going and wanting to archieve, i have allways been nice and kind. ii have grown up in a family which pushed me to succeed and was very strict. i was at university last year doing a bachelor of criminology.

in the beggining of the year i did my first hit of acid. the first trip i had was amazing, it was a 'bad' tripm but i never saw it as that. it set me free, it put me way up there in the dream, so i figured i didnt want to go to uni anymore, i then did more acid, started doing pills every weekend and yeah.
i took acid cause of the discovery of amazing things, this world everything is amazing, and acid can help you see that and see things in ways that arent imaginable without acid.
but taking acid at the same time can make you very blind.

maybe im just a crazy mother fucker, i had a psychotic reaction a few times, iv allways been a weird kid. but i have no history of mental illness. i would allways trip out alot from weed. i would allways think far out waky shit. i had constant philosphical thoughts. so yeah, acid was a very philisphical thing. anything that happens on acid is a prfound thing of meaning, not just a stupid trip to see things.

and well yeah, me and all my friends have slowly stopped seeing each other, we are slowly geting on with our lives now. but at the same time, each time we see each other we dose for the most part. and they have all gotten weird. i mean real weird, i dont know who these guys are now. some trips is fine, there the same, then some trips, usually the bad trips, the psychotic trips, they arent the same, they become very weird in themselves, despite them seeming happy and whatever.
so yeah, im sure all of this stuff has happened to me, and probably the most to me, but its scary how much this acid stuff can change your whole persona. so its somthing to not take without some serious consideration.
and anywat, some things were not meant to know. you know, somtimes i just get zoned out, i cant talk, and i just stare at something for hours and i cant even think a thought, its just clear, but at the same time im comprehending too much for my brain. keep it simple stupid.
ofcourse, i think my problem is in every trip i looked into them too much, try to take everything out of them and change things and do things about me and everything from each trip. i take acid too seriosly perhaps if anything.

but yeah, i guess acid is meant for you if you make the decision to go and find it.
if you decide to take acid, then you were meant to take acid. if you had that curiosty about you.
if you dont than acid isnt for you.
acid is the most strangly psychologically addictive drug ever.
i cant say no to acid no matter what no matter where, no matter what it has done good or bad. and i proved that last weekedn.
once you take acid once, its somthing that has to be done periodically thro out yoru life. i sware. maybe im wrong but thats what i rekon

 

the scary thing is i have seen things in my friends that is quite scary. and iv seen it in all of them, and even my gf. i have seen their minds break, and i have seen them talk crazy things, sentences of structure that just are complety waked out. like, there not in there proper perspective anymore, but there consciousness looses its conscouness and your not really there controlling it. and its when your mind cant take anymore.
and acid does it and its scary.
somone you know for years could be a complete psychotic scary person.

 

My memory is great on acid I can remeber things I never knew...but pot makes me forget what I went to my truck for...

Aloha,

Greg

 

there was about two months there were it was vitamin status. somedays just enough to taste it, other days enough to send me 0na wild ride. i ate a tenth of crystal a while back and was really out of it black out style high for a week and a half.ill tell yas that story when i get sometime. i felt effects everytime i got stoned for months and months after. also got pretty bad vertigo for a long time after. yer body metabolizes things quick when yer young.

 

peter i will agree with you. i think it is possible for (some?) people to do too much acid. i believe i've met some people that have. maybe that's just me being judgmental though.
i've only done it a handful of times, so i don't have experience with "too much."

i don't think you're doing anything great for that 17 year old girl/mom.
and what the hell does the latino thing matter? that's pretty ignorant.
i mean i understand the difference between fucking a girl and wanting to marry her, but..she seems like she's been through a lot..maybe it would be best if you at least don't lead her on, as if you want an emotional relationship.

i guess i just think you're being selfish. whether you think "selfish" is wrong or right is your choice.

i also think you have done too much L, or dosed too often. maybe you should try to "just say no." i'm not trying to patronize you. i myself think i should say goodbye to MJ but still continue to smoke. we all have our little problems.

my advice; 1)treat the girl with a little more respect
2) lay off on the acid and tripping with your friends. try to hang out with them sober and see if you can connect

that's my 2 cents (or 4)