Self-harm has been around for many a year - it is to stimulate and provoke reaction However, there are limits to this that can become a danger to ones self One must take care not to let this self-harm/self-help get to a level where/when endangerment becomes a primary act that leads to obsession and/or final solution
I like to binge on anything I can get my hands on that relieves the boredom of a long slow death in a dying world What if... when we die we are forever again born into another creature on the earth and that's it forever for the rest of of all time until the end of eternity we must seek food, air, water, shelter from the world that sustains us and death?
I have a buddy who used to cut but managed to totally quit but has numerous scars from it. He also quit drinking,I met him at AA meeting. When we were talking about mental health stuff he also said he has a borderline personality diagnosis but I don't think so cause I have met BPDs and he doesn't do that. They say the two often go together so a doctor in a hospital must have tagged him with the borderline diagnosis after the classic inpatient 5 minute interview they charge an hour for when the cutting came up. If I had all those scars and people asked me how I got them and I did not feel like telling I would say I worked with baby tigers at a zoo once and got scratched a lot or worked in a vets office handling cats or something. My buddy laughed at that one. boarderline personality quiz www.google.com/search?q=boarderline+personality+quiz Most people have never heard of that diagnosis cause no drugs have been approved by the Food and Drug Administration specifically for the treatment of borderline personality disorder so big pharma is not playing zillions of dollars worth of ask your doctor ads. One of the symptoms associated with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is the urge to self-harm.
If it were me, I'd probably say something like "fuck you asshole, mind your own fucking business". Working with baby tigers at a zoo sounds like it would be nice though.
I self-harm. Right now, it's solely cutting with occasional burning. But, I've been self harming since I was a baby. Granted, people said I did it back then to get attention, or try to get attention, anyways. And now my reasons to self harm are to keep all my thoughts and emotions inside, so that I don't bother anyone else with them. It's for control, distraction, focus. I don't even think I self-harmed for attention back then. I think it was the same reasons as now; control. But, people always think it's because of attention. That, or they think the person is just crazy. Good for you, Wannabe Psychologist Douchebag... you just broke the mystery of human anguish. Here is a cookie, dumbass. Anyways, My methods back then weren't the most refined. I would just hit myself against something over and over. But, I've changed my methods over the years. Pinching and scratching myself until I break skin. Buying those little glass candles, taking it home, and squeezing it until I crack it. Stuff like that, but now it's just cutting, sometimes burning. Also, it's partly an addiction now. I just need to do it.
Apparently, people with BPD are known for self-harming, particularly of the cutting kind. Also, I read that if kids are headbangers, and do other more violent means of self-harm, because cutting isn't that violent, that they probably have early BPD. But, professionals can't diagnose a kid with BPD, so it goes untreated. I don't know. That's just what I read.
I sit in the dark talking to myself, anybody please tell me why I need help I'm in love with pain and take a needle or a knife and drive that mofo through my windpipe and I might just take a razor blade, dip it in some gas and try to cut a skin off the calves. Grotesque I'm a walking body bag and when it all heals... I pick the scabs.
I know the feeling aoabai, cutting here too, its obsessive for one because it looks so pretty after and feels so great for another
Yea, the aftermath of cutting is delightful as well. Watching the blood drip, days later accidentally hitting it and feeling the slight sting, touching it when it first heals, and touching it after it heals. Sometimes some of my scars hurt like they did when I first got them, and the weird thing is that I got them years ago. They hurt like that when other people touch them. Like I have said before on this God foresaken board, everyone has a vice. Mine happens to be cutting. Also, I'm more honest than most people about my vice, and other insecurities.
Or when you get in a shower or bath and its really hot and the cuts sting and swell and go red, hiding them is no fun though and no one seems to appreciate the poetry to the inflicting pain, are you in the US? i feel like we could be friends
I mainly wear long sleeve shirts, or lower my sweater to cover my arms. Or I wear these laced armwarmers that I have had for years. I've been cutting my arms for years that I cut over old scars now. So, I started cutting my inner thighs, and I have been thinknig about cutting my back. That would give me more surface, and that is easier to cover up. I live in the U.S.
same here, the cold weather is useful for that, i try to stick to my upper arms or torso I'm in Chicago where are you
