You didn't start going to church for no reason. You didn't start thinking about religion / church for no reason. I know people like to imply that they weren't "compelled" or "brainwashed" as children in regards to religion, but the fact of the matter is that religion is not natural, just as money, forms of government, racism, pedophilia and "-isms" are not natural parts of our lives; they all come after the fact and must be perpetuated by us in order to continue to have meaning / significance / exist at all.