Friday Night - 1 Tab taken in 2 1/2's roughly 1 hour between each other. Setting - Bedroom I initially only took half this night to get a rough estimate on the strength of this acid without going into a deep experience however after roughly an hour into it my inhibitions had dropped a bit and the house had quietened down therefore I decided to just drop the other half despite betting a bit concerned about any encounters with the family I decided it'd be worth the risks. Around an hour after dosing the first half of the tab my perception had changed a good deal but I felt that it wasn't enough for the desired feeling I was aiming for and actually this would be my first kinda recap lesson on acid after not having tripped for a good while I've realised that If I'm going to have an experience the next time it will be best to just go for it fully because the way I like to use psychedelics is to go deep and unburdened therefore to tease myself with a minimal dose is just a waste and regretful. So I took the other half to see if I could improve the experience. Around 20 minutes to half an hour after this I started to get the tell tale signs of visuals yi know when you start noticing things but you can't put you're finger on it being a trick of the eye or not, I felt fairly bizarre but not quite there yet, kind off in a limbo land between normal perception and the psychedelic experience though it was dawning on me that I'm probably going to be tripping rather soon because I'm familiar with this feeling. I usually get pre trip anxiety but once things get going it's around this time that the anxiety fades away and I start hoping for something more. After another half an hour I finally started to get proper visuals, I was still sitting at the PC at this point and managed to make one final post before I realised that the computer was just grounding me and anyway my attention was pinging around from one thing to the next and it was becoming increasingly difficult to even choose, read and get playing some music I wanted to listen too. I also started to feel kind of vulnerable and exposed as I knew that this was only going to grow more intense and the thought of speaking to other human beings just became such an alien concept, how could they ever grasp what I'm going through and I was worried that my family would panic at me tripping out therefore I decided it would be a good idea to go and lie in bed with the lights out. I had managed to get some music playing and turned of the monitor and stretched my headset over to my bed, mission accomplished, I'm safe to go wherever it is I'm going now. Trying to grasp how to work out which way to lie in bed and the seemingly web like nature of my duvet was a new set of obstacles in itself made worse by the fact that the dog was lying at the bottom of the bed and restricting my movement it took a while to get comfortable, I felt like a beached octopus for a while but the dog finally left me in peace and it was a very liberating experience. Soon after this I started to realise that the music was distracting me and it all seemed a bit chaotic and harsh even though it was chilled out psybient I was listening too I just wasn't perceiving it in the way I usually enjoyed it, It seemed over stimulating and there were more important things to focus on. Again after I removed the headset I noticed I could still hear the music and now the computer seemed to be making intrusive industrial sounds so I had to turn that off to, I allowed myself the exception this time of just turning it off straight at the power button. This whole experience of removing stimuli felt like removing layers of an onion to get to the core of where I was going. Physically I had noticed that I had been getting regular muscle twitches which soon turned into trembling in the back/inside of my upper legs though it wasn't uncomfortable and just seemed to nicely highlight a growing intensity which was coinciding with a vibratory whirring noise that was emanating from my brothers xbox though this sound seemed much more polite to me so I let it be, this noise seemed to warp around me not unlike how light can't escape from a black hole. I would note that I spent the most of the time during the next part of the trip with my eyes closed in bed. The trembling and the auditory vibrations grew more and more intense to the point it was quite stimulating and had a kind of sexual vibe to it, visually I was seeing myself as a human with no skin that was transforming between male and female forums and anything in-between. The stimulation seemed to go through the core of my body which made me think that this is what it may be like for a female to have an orgasm but still alien to the human experience and sex was not on my mind. Again the situation changed and this stimulation began to feel more like raw universal energy that was coursing through my body, I was still having various visions some of which were post apocalyptic which I think were spurred on by my feeling that the energy I was possessing was nuclear in nature but on a scale man would not dare to fiddle with. Amongst this nuclear reaction a lot of experiences from my life were warping and fusing together and a few times I may have questioned if certain events I was experiencing had just happened like I was exploring various timelines all at once then I would remember to my relief again that I was tripping. One of the visions was very interesting as I began to divide myself into four parts and then experience myself from these four different nodes simultaneously and though I hate to use this cliché it was reminiscent of the painting by Alex Grey called web of being. I began to retreat deeper into my mind around this time as I began to get bombarded with all kinds of visions. I was getting a little worried that I was loosing control of what was going on and if I'd still be able to keep my cool, I kept wanting to make gestures with my hands that at the time seemed like some kind of tribal symbology with deep significant meaning I was yet to understand. The idea of letting go seemed to keep coming up as I battled with the feeling that I may not have any choice but at the same time I didn't want anybody to realize I was tripping. I feel from this little experience that a higher dose and being in the comfort of my own house could have been a far rewarding experience as it was really just the fear of projecting the internal chaos onto my perceived reaction that my family would have if they were to stumble upon me in this state if I had began to externalise what was going on inside. I noticed that negative feelings were conjuring up bad images in which things could warp into hissing reptile like images that were quite pissed of at my state of being and then as quick as I could fall into negative feelings a simple change of position could get me fixated on the fractal beauty of the LSD visuals again. There were moments when things were going so fast it was hard to even begin to process them and hence this report will be lacking of the full spectrum of experiences I had. During these times I felt more of an observer to some kind of grand cosmic show, I've heard people relating the LSD experience to some kind of carnival but this was more, it was like the most hedonistic rave/orgy of extra dimensional beings you could imagine with no clear form you could relate to humans but had similar human features such as bulging eyes and interlocking legs and arms, it was all entwined in transforming infinite chains of rhythmic sex, twisting and bouncing along to a high tempo beat that was generating and driving this beautiful chaos. Time seemed to go exceptionally fast on this trip and it seemed to hit 4am before I had knew it, the slight shift in light spectrum from the sky reminded me that morning was approaching which snapped me out of the deepest part of the trip, I was able to go for a cigarette and check out the computer again though I was still getting pretty strong visuals, everything seemed to look like I was observing it through rippling water but I was now much more able to comprehend things again though words on screen seemed very disjointed and I struggled to make sense so I gave up pretty fast with the computer and went back to listening to music and enjoying the visuals. I felt pretty good on the come down even though I felt a bit burnt out, it sort of felt like I had some kind of neuronal workout that had got all my feel good chemicals pumping anew again, all these new ideas, possibilities, lessons to apply into life and a healthy re-establishment of confidence to take into my next trips after a good period of time without psychedelics. All in all I got a bit more than I bargained for but on this occasion it turned out to be a good thing. I'm already excited about my next trip and my passion for the psychedelic culture has been rekindled, this seems to have came at just the right time in my life and I'm grateful for it.
sounds like a really nice trip - especially nice to be surprised at how potent the hits were. do you have more of the same blotter for next time? i'm curious how old you are and where you're from
Yeh It was a good trip, one of my best to date and thanks for taking the time to read it . I still have 3 more of these tabs but for sure I'll be getting more of them. Next time I'll be tripping at my own house so I won't have no family to worry about so I'm really looking forward to it. And I'm 26 btw from the UK.
I wonder what that would be like huh lol. I think next time I plan on taking two. Though I'm gonna try and stock up on these whilst they're available so higher doses is something I could consider in the near future.
