Really Good Question.

DXM is worse. Prolly not a worse addiction. But its worse for the body. It does things to the brain nobody knows about. They haven't any posted any of the real facts on Erowid. You have to go to a real doctor who served in the army as a LT. Col to know the real facts about that shit. It does shit to all your organs. It changes your body chemistry in such a way that you would have to be cut open and studied because you would be different from every other human being on the face of the earth. I've also did my fair share of opiates making me really sensitive to pain. If I bump my elbow on something it hurts for hours. You have no idea what my life is like. I would GIVE ANYTHING to be someone else with an addiction. Alcohol, Heroin, Cocaine. Any of that shit. Nothing is worse than DXM. NOTHING! I'm high when i'm sober. All the time. I'm always tripping now. It never stops. Not even in my sleep. I'm always seeing shit that ain't there. Hopefully though it hasn't fucked up my dreams of being what I want to be and actually work for what I want. Maybe i'll be halfway normal to work with computers and not fucking kill myself because I'm seeing shit that ain't there. Only a few people in the world are like me prolly. And they prolly either killed themselves or ended up in the state hospital for the rest of their life. Imagine taking such a high dose of DXM you can't hardly remember what happened the last 9 hours of your trip. Imagine doing 1000Mgs of DXM daily because you can't get over the fact you could have made things right with the girl you love. But you can't Cause she died in a car wreck. Nobody can help me.. I can only help myself.. The only thing people can do is give me advice. And I can either run with it or say fuck it...

Not that I'm saying you haven't had any problems in your life. We all have. Its the way you deal with them. I'm so sick of hurting my family all the time because i'm in a pissy ass mood. All my friends know i'm paranoid. I txt someone. And if they don't txt back it pisses me off because i'm thinking they are out to get me.

I just want it all to change.. I've given it time. And time has did nothing but help me heal physically... Not mentally.. I still deal with all this pain on a daily basis..