rapists

and anyways

why dont you ask my husband or hacker or seamonster

imma put up the story once again and take it down- i dont like this being out there...
the beach we went to?.....

 

dan and i went there last august.... first night, we werent getting along- we split up and i dont know what he did but i went out drinking at a couple bars... and i remember everthing.. just drank- came home to the cabin.. second night, we get in a huge fight and i storm off...

 

drunk i admit but i know my alcohol levels.. you have NO IDEA what this has done to me, i had taken ghb by accident at a rave before and i could remember what it felt like but it was a week later til i had any clue.... i was at a bar, drank LESS then the night before...

 

I am not here to be sensitive and kind. I am here to speak my mind on the issues I read. As far as the fact that you would never do that to me? I have seen how far you will go to spite me. Sorry if what I said hurt your feelings, but I do not believe half of all rape encounters I hear anymore.

 

next thing i know im on the picnic table outside and dan comes running up asking me about my bathing suit bottom... it was just horrible... i didnt have it and he asked about my phone

 

my phone was gone- he was so alarmed that it scares me and i still worry about him how it gets to him.... he had called my cell and some guy answered and said "triiish? oh your wife... im raping her.. yeaaah man.. im fucking her in the ass"

 

dan said "who is this?" he said "jooohny" dan said "im caling the cops" he said "what are they gonna arrest, my dick?!!"
dan said "ill kill you" it got hung up. then he was called back and there was breathing of a guy.....

 

i ended up in the hospital... and i almost flipped out on a guard becaus ethey wouldnt let me leave.. at that point i had no idea what was going on and i never get like that with drinking, and drinking less then i was used to.... i had flashes of memories... i remember walking by a pool and talking to two girls

 

for two weeks! my ass fucking bled like a mofo... i dont have anal sex but i could hardly sit down and the blood would just come and it started to hit me what happened later.. i found dan's journal about it and he feels he was raped too and i feel for him

 

i dont go out of my way to spite you. check your friends for that. but in any case not in this thread... what im talking about is real and this isnt about you and me not getting along

 

you just have no idea what that did to me and as i said that i deleted earlier... it helped me though that's sick to say.. i wasnt gonna BE that girl again, ya know?

i really took a close look at my face and why i was in that situation and i tried and have done something about it... i wont ever be that girl again.... period.

however, the whole time i was blaming myself- i never felt my anger for him and i have no idea what he looks like and that is so frustrating. like you dont even know.

 

You are right, it is not. I would have made that same comment in anybodys thread. You are the one that seemed surpised that I, 'of all people', would post that in here. I do not believe most rape stories. It has nothing to do with you, but that is how I am. I find that "being raped" for a lot of people has become nothing more than an attention getter or an excuse for hostility and poor attitude. The two people I have known to actually be rape victims damn sure were not calm about it, and could not even talk about it without breaking down histerically.

 

haha have u seen me tonight? no i know what u mean but u dont know my migraine and how many things i hit and how i clamed up afterwards... it feels insulting to me because i am telling the truth- imagine if that happened to u and someone came along and said that.... i understand where u are coming from but
a- very insensitive... to be honest if i wasnt strong enough and been working hard to rebuild my life (ask anyone), i would have stuck a knife in my throat- i felt like doing that.. it took a lot for me to talk about it tonight and itll be deleted again prolly

and b)
FUCK THOSE GIRLS THEN! they deserve my anger just as much! fuck them for cheaping something like that...

i spent two weeks in bed and couldnt even talk to dan and fuck it... just how hard i worked to get over it and be a different person and now.... i hear this .. its just sad

 

also im not much for wanting attention anymore. i talk to one person from the forums out side of here though im nice to everyone.

an excuse for hostility and poor attitude? oh please... then why did i delete my posts?

you cant believe that someone would take advantage of a drunk bitch like me? then get real. i was an EASY TARGET.... that's why it was a wake up call... you just have no idea....

 

Stop flattering yourself. My post was not about you. My post was on my thought of rape and rapists as a whole. I have and will continue to refrain from giving an opinion on you or the claims you have made. It seems though that you are bent on making what I have said to be about you, and it most certainly is not.

 

i made this THREAD about me.. you chose to come here.

even though i deleted stuff- i sat here shaking while writing stuff so yes, when someone that i know that hates me comes on and posts something like that in a thread i made about myself and my feelings about something... sorry... ill try not to take it personal.

 

haha the claims i have made! dude... do you wanna call dan or the hospital or the police?

its all on record. christ. asshole.

you are the one that lies

 

i hate to do this but i will apologize.. you just must understand.....

 

I have not once called you a liar or any other name. I said I will refrain from giving my opinion. Also the first thing I read in this thread had nothing to do with any personal account of your own. Title: Rapists. Body: Suck

I would not suggest posting something if you are not prepared for all kinds. As you have told many people here dozens of times, if you do not like what people say, post elsewhere. I am done with this discussion now as it has turned personal on your part, and I do not appreciate the level to which you are taking it.

 

actually its impossible for you to understand what its like...

reading dan's notebook- by accident at first, seeing key words and seeing five pages of him saying "god help me know how to help her and god help me and i feel raped" dan NEVER says god...

you have no fucking idea! he pushed me to go after the guy and it woulda been worthless so i stayed in bed...

im done. you ruined it.

im sorry if i was mean but put yourself in my shoes for one sec.- if you were finally talking about something like this and I!!!! came along and said something like you said.. you wouldnt be too happy and you know it.

im closing this cause i cant take it